I am gay.
If you had told me a few months ago that some day I’d be comfortable saying that, I would have thought you were crazy.
And to be honest, it still feels so surreal.
Two months ago something happened to me, that completely changed the course of my life - I had a series of severe panic attacks.
Interestingly, I had prayed to God for weeks before this incident, asking Him for an opportunity to finally tell my family that I was gay. I had known it for ten years, yet kept it a secret and tried to convince myself that it would go away some day.
While being raised in a religious environment instilled many wonderful values in me, discovering that I was gay at age 14 was the scariest thing ever. Growing up was hard enough, yet feeling as though I was by default a broken human being robbed me of any self-esteem. My passion for art saved me during that dark period.
Had it not been for my panic attack, I probably would have stayed closeted. But when I was at my lowest, I knew I had to get rid of all emotional burdens, or else they would simply crush me.
Coming out and choosing to be true to who I am has filled me with a peace and joy I haven’t felt for years.
I am sharing my story, because I know there are others out there who are going through the same hell I had to go through.
Whoever you are, please, PLEASE know that you are loved.
The world is a better place because of the gentle soul you are. I know that every situation is unique and I can’t prescribe a one-fits-all solution. But what I can and will prescribe is this: you are perfect the way you are and God loves you.
If you need someone to talk to about these issues, please DM me and I’ll try my best to give confidential advice and/or encouragement.
I don’t know where my future will take me, but I know I want to embrace who I am, live an authentic life and offer support to those afflicted. If God is the loving, wise being whose presence I have felt so many times in my life, I know He is calling me to stand up for those who are among the most vulnerable.
I am Jonas.
I am an artist.
I am gay.
I am not broken.
And neither are you.
- #lgbtq 🌈 #comingout
So I never mentioned this part of me until now. I'm a boy (duh) but my journey to simply exist as one is different from other boys-- cis boys. I am ftm, female to male transgender. That basically means my brain developed as male but my body developed as female in the womb. This discrepancy caused me to experience dysphoria, leading me to take action to transition physically and socially. I've been on testosterone for 2 years now and my top surgery is scheduled for this coming May. I wanted to share this bit of my identity because I'm secure enough in knowing who I am. Being trans is a part of my life but it does not define me. I want to put this out there in hopes that it can help someone.. When I was 13, I had people that I looked up to, people who showed me that transgender people can lead normal happy lives like everyone else. Maybe I can be that person for a struggling kid who is questioning their gender now.
Also yeah that cute girl on the left is me. 😎