i love cleaning my room so much.
i spent most of my days off work just cleaning, decluttering, reorganizing, and redecorating my bedroom.
today, among other things, i am taking all my cold weather clothes out of my closet and putting them into storage bins and i’m putting all my warm weather clothes into my closet.
what a time!
i took my acrylic nails off and i’m Big Sad.
my hands aren’t pretty anymore :( i can’t tap on everything :/ functioning without them is difficult after getting used to them :’(
i want them back ;’(
but my nails are so damaged and thin and sad :(((
i’m making a cook book for when i move out and i’m putting a lot of time and effort into making it look really nice :)
i went to Staples today and got so many supplies for it.
i’m hand writing the whole thing !
i’m putting in recipes from high school cooking classes and recipes from my family members.
i’ve only written out three recipes and it’s taking me sooo long because i want every page to be beautiful and perfect :’)
52114 March, 2019
haha haha y’know when you’re the one to always text first haha and you kinda think you and your pal’s friendships are fading hahaha so you test em by not texting first ! and you see if they’ll ever text you first hhahshahahahaAND THEY NEVER DO HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA HAHAHAHA IVE GOT NO FRIENDS BASED ON THIS LIL TEST HAHAHAHAHAHAAALIFE IS GREAT LIFE IS GOOD HA HA
351014 March, 2019
i’m going to get one of my tattoos touched up tomorrow afternoon and i’m spoooookeed because i’m going alone and i haaaaate doing shit alone 🙃
i also might be getting my hair cut because my coworker is also a hairdresser and the tattoo place is in the same building as the hair salon so i might get those two things done all at once !
then i’m gonna go to the mall (it’s all in the same area) and the only good store at the mall is closing down so everything is on sale so imma hunt for some good cheap clothes !
i would just feel so much better if i could bring Cole but he’s working. or a friend but i don’t have any and hanging out with friends stresses me out lol
27314 March, 2019
i love my stretch marks so much 💓 i hope if you have some, you love them too 💓💓💓
the store i work for, fuck the whole company i work for, doesn’t recycle anything. which is idiotic because the amount of plastic waste we produce daily is INSANE.
i work in fashion and almost every single piece of clothing is individually wrapped in plastic. all our skids are wrapped in this industrial shrink wrap shit. it’s fucking stupid the amount of plastic we waste on the daily. AND IT ALL GOES IN THE DUMPSTER!
i fought to have a recycling bin in our lunch room because as staff members we personally produce a lot of plastic waste from lunches and water bottles and stuff. my boss (who is also my father, i work for the store my dad owns) put a recycling bin in the lunch room at my demand. i felt proud of myself for seeing a problem and actually doing something about it. i put up a sign telling people to put their plastic in the bin in aggressive caption all bold letters.
I FIND OUT YESTERDAY THAT ALL THE PLASTIC WASTE IN THAT BIN IS BEING PUT IN THE FUCKING DUMPSTER. I AM PISSED. my dad let me believe that i was making a slight difference in the workplace that doesn’t recycle shit. i was fucking lied to. this company is fucking stupid and i’m done. if i had my own car i would take all the plastic waste from the store every fucking day and bring it to the recycling plant my fucking self. i work for such a dumbass fucking company and i don’t know what to do. i might email head office and company and suggest changes. this is fucking ridiculous.
35312 March, 2019
i really want to get back into wood burning.
i wood burned designs onto most of my projects in wood shop in high school and any of my spare time in class i spent wood burning scrap wood.
my dad is a woodworker so he has all the tools and supplies for me to do it again :)
maybe i’ll wood burn a nice bear or something :) i’m excited. hopefully i feel motivated to start tomorrow
can you imagine living life not being stressed and anxious about your every little move and action.
i can’t imagine having a conversation with someone and not overthinking everything i say. not telling myself “you did a good/bad job talking to that person” after the conversation is over.
i can’t imagine not worrying all the time. having a calm mind. not obsessing about stupid things.
i genuinely don’t know what it’s like to feel relaxed. i’m always stressing about something. and if i don’t have anything to stress about, i’m stressed about the fact that nothing is stressful because that means something stressful must be coming.
i’m always on edge. i can never turn this off or relax or be calm.
Cole and i have been buying stuff for when we move out for a while now. we’ve got a lot of kitchen stuff already and a few decor items.
sometimes i’ll be at work and i’ll see really cute baby clothes or cute baby items. like there have been baby clothes with cute bears on them and fricken fluffy cute bear onesies. ugh it kills me. i don’t buy any of it but Cole says if i see something really adorable i should pick it up.
i’m really starting to think many i should because some stuff is just so adorable and then i don’t buy it and it’s gone :(
5298 March, 2019
i got a fitness app so i could start tracking what i eat because i have no idea how healthy/unhealthy or how little/too much i eat and i want to be healthy. but it’s the same app i used years ago when my mental health was Bad and i would worry about every single little thing i ate because i was obsessed with my weight and wanted to be stupidly skinny. using the app hurts me and tracking everything you intake is fucking annoying and i know if i keep doing it i’m going to get obsessed again. so even though it’s only been two days of using it, i’m deleting the app.
i started watching Umbrella Academy and i really like it :)
4527 March, 2019
i’m so excited and ready for spring. i want to be active again. i want to go outside more. i got really out of shape over the winter and my tummy is a lil chubby now and i’m not about it. in the spring i’m going to go for bikes rides regularly and cole and i want to start jogging !!! i’m so ready for nice weather!!!
COMMENT MOVIE/ SHOW SUGGESTIONS Cole and i don’t know what to watch anymore !!!
44125 March, 2019
time goes by so fucking fast when you’re actually having a good time and it’s fucking rude.
i went to cole’s house yesterday at noon and him and his friend tyler just played video games and we watched youtube videos and just laughed so much and it felt like a half hour had passed but it was fucking 4pm so damn fast.
tyler went home around 9:00pm so it was just me and Cole and we had dinner and watched a SHORT movie and when it was done we just hung out but all of a sudden it was 12am.
time went by so fucking fast it felt fake.
i didn’t go home until 1am but i didn’t care because i was having a good time and time was going by at a stupid speed so i said fuck it to the time on the clock and just cared about having a good time.
i work at 9:30am this morning and i only got 5 hours of sleep and i woke up sooooo tired but i don’t care because i just didn’t want to stop having a good time last night.
i am going to get so many more tattoos in the spring & summer☀️
it’s just so much easier getting them done when it’s warm out because you don’t have to wear as many clothes. clothes rubbing on fresh tattoos SUCKS.
i have so many tats planned i ca’t wait to get some more!!!