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  • Я ненавидела таблетки. Не признавала их. Боялась. Набора веса, нервного срыва, безумия, всего. Мой врач объяснила мне. Меня просто никогда нормально не лечили. Даже шанса не было помочь мне хоть как-нибудь. И я задумалась - это же блин верно.
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Я просто поверила. Доверилась. Знала, что пройду через трудности доказательной медицины - подбор лекарств.
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Но когда сквозь все побочки наступает целительное чувство радости, покоя, тишины в душе - это невероятно. Когда тревога твоя затихает до уровня «можно жить», когда булимия даёт тебе зелёный свет (мигающий правда, но и на том спасибо), когда депрессия наконец уходит и дереализация перестаёт корежить твои минуты жизни - каждый человек с психическим расстройством меня поймёт.
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Что сейчас? Конечно мне страшно думать о будущем. Но я строю планы. Я боюсь представить, как буду жить всю жизнь на лекарствах, но без них моя жизнь может закончиться внезапно и куда раньше.
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Никому не стоит бояться ни психиатров, ни психотерапевтов, ни лекарственной терапии. Потому что это такие же врачи. Они даже более чуткие, чем другие. Лечите свою душу, помогайте своему мозгу.
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Ну и пишите мне, если что🙃я постараюсь ответить в тот же день, а то я как последняя задница не могу НОРМАЛЬНО ответить добрым людям в директе🧡🌈
  • Я ненавидела таблетки. Не признавала их. Боялась. Набора веса, нервного срыва, безумия, всего. Мой врач объяснила мне. Меня просто никогда нормально не лечили. Даже шанса не было помочь мне хоть как-нибудь. И я задумалась - это же блин верно.

    Я просто поверила. Доверилась. Знала, что пройду через трудности доказательной медицины - подбор лекарств.

    Но когда сквозь все побочки наступает целительное чувство радости, покоя, тишины в душе - это невероятно. Когда тревога твоя затихает до уровня «можно жить», когда булимия даёт тебе зелёный свет (мигающий правда, но и на том спасибо), когда депрессия наконец уходит и дереализация перестаёт корежить твои минуты жизни - каждый человек с психическим расстройством меня поймёт.

    Что сейчас? Конечно мне страшно думать о будущем. Но я строю планы. Я боюсь представить, как буду жить всю жизнь на лекарствах, но без них моя жизнь может закончиться внезапно и куда раньше.

    Никому не стоит бояться ни психиатров, ни психотерапевтов, ни лекарственной терапии. Потому что это такие же врачи. Они даже более чуткие, чем другие. Лечите свою душу, помогайте своему мозгу.

    Ну и пишите мне, если что🙃я постараюсь ответить в тот же день, а то я как последняя задница не могу НОРМАЛЬНО ответить добрым людям в директе🧡🌈
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  • It’s taken me a long time to get to a place where I’m ready to take a risk and be open about this. I am not fearless and I worry about how this might affect both my personal and professional relationships. The thing is, I suffered greatly because of the silence around mental health, and to break out and create change takes vulnerability. I may not be perfect with what I say, but we can’t learn without first starting the conversation. 
#borderlinepersonalitydisorder #mentalhealthawareness #bpd #removethestigma #whydontweengage
  • It’s taken me a long time to get to a place where I’m ready to take a risk and be open about this. I am not fearless and I worry about how this might affect both my personal and professional relationships. The thing is, I suffered greatly because of the silence around mental health, and to break out and create change takes vulnerability. I may not be perfect with what I say, but we can’t learn without first starting the conversation.
    #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #mentalhealthawareness #bpd #removethestigma #whydontweengage
  • 12 5 27 minutes ago
  • 🌈 UPDATE:
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📷 I received the R W Connell award for 2018 undergraduate. I’ve been dealing with a lot of uni stress because I need an average score of 85, and I’m probably looking at an average of about 80-84 at the moment. This could mean the difference between receiving a scholarship for the second year or having to drop out. This means I really need to double down and work hard on improving my grades.
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❤️ I am now officially exclusively dating someone. This is actually terrifying for me. I haven’t been in an exclusive relationship since 2010-ish and I’m kind of terrified but this guy is really amazing and stable and could be good for me. It’s something I’ll need to work on in therapy to make sure I don’t go absolutely insane since relationships are probably my biggest trigger.
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🧡 I’ve decided to cut down to one day of work per week to focus more on my uni work since assessment period is coming up.
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💛 I went in to review my medication today. My doctor is going to continue me on 10mg of Lexapro for a month. If I improve she’ll keep me on that, if I stay the same she’s going to up me to 20mg. It’s hard to even know if the medication is working or if it’s the kind of natural up and downs of my BPD and other conditions. I’m still in a bit of a low but am doing much better than I was a month or so ago. -
💚 I’ve helped my dad admit himself into a drug recovery program at our local hospital. I’m really proud of him for taking this step because he was able to stay clean for a while last time. But this also means he’s going to need extra time and support from me as well. Hopefully, we can support one another.
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💙 I am really enjoying my DBT course and my psychologist. I find it so helpful and would like to commit more to practicing my skills. I wish I had the resources for weekly psychologist appointments but fortnightly will need to suffice for now.
  • 🌈 UPDATE:
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    📷 I received the R W Connell award for 2018 undergraduate. I’ve been dealing with a lot of uni stress because I need an average score of 85, and I’m probably looking at an average of about 80-84 at the moment. This could mean the difference between receiving a scholarship for the second year or having to drop out. This means I really need to double down and work hard on improving my grades.
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    ❤️ I am now officially exclusively dating someone. This is actually terrifying for me. I haven’t been in an exclusive relationship since 2010-ish and I’m kind of terrified but this guy is really amazing and stable and could be good for me. It’s something I’ll need to work on in therapy to make sure I don’t go absolutely insane since relationships are probably my biggest trigger.
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    🧡 I’ve decided to cut down to one day of work per week to focus more on my uni work since assessment period is coming up.
    -
    💛 I went in to review my medication today. My doctor is going to continue me on 10mg of Lexapro for a month. If I improve she’ll keep me on that, if I stay the same she’s going to up me to 20mg. It’s hard to even know if the medication is working or if it’s the kind of natural up and downs of my BPD and other conditions. I’m still in a bit of a low but am doing much better than I was a month or so ago. -
    💚 I’ve helped my dad admit himself into a drug recovery program at our local hospital. I’m really proud of him for taking this step because he was able to stay clean for a while last time. But this also means he’s going to need extra time and support from me as well. Hopefully, we can support one another.
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    💙 I am really enjoying my DBT course and my psychologist. I find it so helpful and would like to commit more to practicing my skills. I wish I had the resources for weekly psychologist appointments but fortnightly will need to suffice for now.
  • 8 1 1 hour ago
  • Have taken this week off work as I just don’t feel ready to go back. I decided that if I have this week off I really need to use it for proper R&R and not just sitting on the sofa watching crap TV but... it’s 12:30pm and I’m sitting on the sofa watching crap TV.

I’m going to use today to finish this knitting project (watch this space!) and plan activities for this week so I can feel really refreshed and recovered before going back to work. I also just feel in the need for retail therapy so I think some time on Amazon is in order and maybe a trip to Oxford Street later in the week...
#knitting #doctor #tea
  • Have taken this week off work as I just don’t feel ready to go back. I decided that if I have this week off I really need to use it for proper R&R and not just sitting on the sofa watching crap TV but... it’s 12:30pm and I’m sitting on the sofa watching crap TV.

    I’m going to use today to finish this knitting project (watch this space!) and plan activities for this week so I can feel really refreshed and recovered before going back to work. I also just feel in the need for retail therapy so I think some time on Amazon is in order and maybe a trip to Oxford Street later in the week...
    #knitting #doctor #tea
  • 10 1 1 hour ago