Hasn’t been the smoothest or most efficient road to starting my career in the Fitness Industry, but the trials and tribulations along the way have made me more passionate than ever to make up for lost time and start impacting others lives positively.
I can’t always be strong.
I can’t always be happy.
I can’t always smile.
I can’t always pretend.
Sometimes it gets hard, even for me, to look in the mirror and be proud of myself.
I’ve done amazing things throughout my life, I’ve done bad things too.
But all the things we do, we learn from, especially our mistakes.
I learn from the mistakes I make everyday.
The last eat mistake I made was pretending to be something I’m not.
I pretended for a long time that I was happy, and that my life was full of joy.
But that’s not the truth.
The truth is, I’ve been at the hospital 2 times this month, I’ve been at the psychiatric hospital (where I had to stay there) twice.
I hate it.....
And now it’s time for the truth. It’s time to let it all out.
I’m done with my first 10 years of school this Friday, and then all my finals will come. After that I’m taking a break, away from everything, to get a hold of myself, to just let it go.
I wanna learn to embrace myself, I wanna learn how to take care of myself.
And I will only learn all that by being only me.
It’s not that I will stop posting here, and I won’t stop talking to people, I’m just taking break from all the problems...
What a week, illnesses, Top Golf, staying out way too late, and countless other things along the way...but this takes the cake!!! With Siera’s permission she is allowing me to post, but she had her wisdom teeth removed and is relaxing now!!! #wisdomteethremoval#cantsmile#selfie