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  • Sometimes a survival response may be activated by something unexpected. We may feel triggered and not be able to make sense of why. ✨
Even if you don’t know the reason, your experience makes sense. Even if your reaction is unexpected or mysterious, just know that there is an explanation even if you never quite grasp it.
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You deserve comfort no matter what the situation or circumstances. You are entitled to take a break and ask for some space.
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Pausing to honour how you feel, even without knowing why, can help to calm and soothe you.
#traumaawarecare
  • Sometimes a survival response may be activated by something unexpected. We may feel triggered and not be able to make sense of why. ✨
    Even if you don’t know the reason, your experience makes sense. Even if your reaction is unexpected or mysterious, just know that there is an explanation even if you never quite grasp it.

    You deserve comfort no matter what the situation or circumstances. You are entitled to take a break and ask for some space.

    Pausing to honour how you feel, even without knowing why, can help to calm and soothe you.
    #traumaawarecare
  • 1,508 35 27 June, 2019
  • This list is not exhaustive, but if you did not experience trauma, attachment disruptions, or chronic overwhelm during childhood development, you may feel confused by the behaviours, emotions, or responses of someone you love who did experience the above.⠀
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As childhood trauma happens during development, there are neurobiological, psychological, and behavioural responses that form. These do not change by willpower or simply a desire to change. They take time, new skills, new neural pathways, and intentional work. ⠀
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The contents of this list come directly from my personal experience as a partner. These are all things on which I have had to educate myself in order to ‘understand’ my partner’s challenges. (They are also the things I discuss in my coaching work.)⠀
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If you are a supporter/partner/friend, I would love to know what you find hard to understand. Let me know in the comments and I can add your thoughts to a future list.⠀
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#complexptsd #trauma #childhoodtrauma #cptsd #complexptsdsurvivor #cptsdrecovery #healing #recovery #traumahealing #traumatherapy #marriageandfamily #relationship #relationships #traumasurvivor #traumasurvivors #healingtrauma #traumarecovery
  • This list is not exhaustive, but if you did not experience trauma, attachment disruptions, or chronic overwhelm during childhood development, you may feel confused by the behaviours, emotions, or responses of someone you love who did experience the above.⠀

    As childhood trauma happens during development, there are neurobiological, psychological, and behavioural responses that form. These do not change by willpower or simply a desire to change. They take time, new skills, new neural pathways, and intentional work. ⠀

    The contents of this list come directly from my personal experience as a partner. These are all things on which I have had to educate myself in order to ‘understand’ my partner’s challenges. (They are also the things I discuss in my coaching work.)⠀

    If you are a supporter/partner/friend, I would love to know what you find hard to understand. Let me know in the comments and I can add your thoughts to a future list.⠀

    #complexptsd #trauma #childhoodtrauma #cptsd #complexptsdsurvivor #cptsdrecovery #healing #recovery #traumahealing #traumatherapy #marriageandfamily #relationship #relationships #traumasurvivor #traumasurvivors #healingtrauma #traumarecovery
  • 1,913 64 21 October, 2019
  • 👂👂listen up you beautiful human beings....Sarah @_mental_health_warrior_ is diagnosed with complex PTSD and borderline personality disorder and reminds others to BE AWARE of what your mind🧠 and body🏃🏻‍♀️ is telling you❤️ listen to your thoughts💭 and body and respect it!
  • 👂👂listen up you beautiful human beings....Sarah @_mental_health_warrior_ is diagnosed with complex PTSD and borderline personality disorder and reminds others to BE AWARE of what your mind🧠 and body🏃🏻‍♀️ is telling you❤️ listen to your thoughts💭 and body and respect it!
  • 33 2 2 December, 2019

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Divine Feminine ~ loosely connecting a few symbols. Enjoy! Happy Valentines Day.
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Many cults evolve around appreciating women and feminine sexuality, only many have forgotten what the symbols mean. .
The sacred stone (picture 1 & 2)
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In pre Islamic times there was a stone cult, dedicated to a threefold goddess:
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• Manat
• Al-Lat (later: "Allah")
• Al-Uzza - the Old Woman
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The stone bore the emblem of the yoni (vagina), just like the black stone worshipped by the votaries of Artemis.
The stone has eventually become the holy centre of Islam. A celebration of Divine Feminine - that has sunken into the collective unconscious.
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Priests of the Kaaba today are still called "Sons of the old Woman" which is a referrence to goddess Al-Uzza.
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The cubic stone form, encompassing the holy stone, the Kaaba signifying Divine Feminine in ancient Rome resurfaced as cult of Cybele. .
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Cybele (=the cube) in Ancient Rome was the wife of the fertility god Saturn. (picture 3 & 4)
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The most ecstatic followers ritually castrated themselves after which they were given women's clothing and assumed female identities. (A variation of the male codependent / enmeshment theme in psychology). .
The general festivities celebrating fertility were called Saturnalia and were less extreme.
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Festivities were dedicated to song, dance and play celebrated during the longest nights of the year in deceber (dec. 20 - 23).
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To celebrate and welcome life and light, after a long winter, candles were burnt and presents were exchanged. .
These presents preferrably were little figurines, symbolizing giving birth to new life, fertility.
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Christmas as we celebrate it today is rooted in Cybeles (the cube) Saturnalia fertility festivities. The Winter solstice.
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The presents we exchange at Christmas are symbols for us celebrating the female ability to give birth, to create. .
The sun and the upcoming days of spring with more sunlight were a symbol for creation and fertility too. Growth of vegetables and corn. Light is fuel for growth. That is also why we also speak of enlightenment when we have understood a major truth about life.
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continue reading in 1st comment.
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    Divine Feminine ~ loosely connecting a few symbols. Enjoy! Happy Valentines Day.
    .
    Many cults evolve around appreciating women and feminine sexuality, only many have forgotten what the symbols mean. .
    The sacred stone (picture 1 & 2)
    .
    In pre Islamic times there was a stone cult, dedicated to a threefold goddess:
    .
    • Manat
    • Al-Lat (later: "Allah")
    • Al-Uzza - the Old Woman
    .
    The stone bore the emblem of the yoni (vagina), just like the black stone worshipped by the votaries of Artemis.
    The stone has eventually become the holy centre of Islam. A celebration of Divine Feminine - that has sunken into the collective unconscious.
    .
    Priests of the Kaaba today are still called "Sons of the old Woman" which is a referrence to goddess Al-Uzza.
    .
    The cubic stone form, encompassing the holy stone, the Kaaba signifying Divine Feminine in ancient Rome resurfaced as cult of Cybele. .
    .
    Cybele (=the cube) in Ancient Rome was the wife of the fertility god Saturn. (picture 3 & 4)
    .
    The most ecstatic followers ritually castrated themselves after which they were given women's clothing and assumed female identities. (A variation of the male codependent / enmeshment theme in psychology). .
    The general festivities celebrating fertility were called Saturnalia and were less extreme.
    .
    Festivities were dedicated to song, dance and play celebrated during the longest nights of the year in deceber (dec. 20 - 23).
    .
    To celebrate and welcome life and light, after a long winter, candles were burnt and presents were exchanged. .
    These presents preferrably were little figurines, symbolizing giving birth to new life, fertility.
    .
    Christmas as we celebrate it today is rooted in Cybeles (the cube) Saturnalia fertility festivities. The Winter solstice.
    .
    .
    The presents we exchange at Christmas are symbols for us celebrating the female ability to give birth, to create. .
    The sun and the upcoming days of spring with more sunlight were a symbol for creation and fertility too. Growth of vegetables and corn. Light is fuel for growth. That is also why we also speak of enlightenment when we have understood a major truth about life.
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    continue reading in 1st comment.
  • 10 6 14 February, 2020
  • I believe many people often use #dissociation as a survival tactic to numb/“forget” the horrid things that happened to them but what I realize (or believe to be true, at least for myself) is... the things that seem to linger the most are the feelings and emotions coming from the trauma. The pain doesn’t go away without some deep and inner healing.
  • I believe many people often use #dissociation as a survival tactic to numb/“forget” the horrid things that happened to them but what I realize (or believe to be true, at least for myself) is... the things that seem to linger the most are the feelings and emotions coming from the trauma. The pain doesn’t go away without some deep and inner healing.
  • 41 1 14 February, 2020
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Coffee with cinnamon and honey.
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Have you tried it? Here's how I drink it.
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• put 2 teaspoons of freshly ground coffee into french coffee press (tastes better because no filter paper.)
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• pour hot water
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• let sit for as long as you feel is right
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• push down
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• pour into favourite cup
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• add 1 teaspoon of cinammon
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• add half a teaspoon of honey before you stirr, so the cinnamon and honey mix better
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• stirr gently
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If you're right in the middle of processing trauma, it might be good to stay away from coffee for a few weeks.
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When you are further on your healing journey you can start with coffee again.
The cinnamon and honey help heal your gut. Cinnamon is a gentle disinfectant. Honey provides you with nurturing carbs needed by your brain to grow new glia cells.
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As you're doing your affirmations, visualisations, writing, walking,  bibliotherapy, massages etc. whatever it is you're doing to heal...your brain restructures itself. For that it needs carbs. The glia cells build a support network for your neurons. .
This glia network with all kinds of new paths, pathways in it is the new map of the world you are forming as you are leaving your trauma-reality.
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If you once suffered from an eating disorder or body image issues the idea of eating carbs can cause panick attacks and rigid, controlling ocd patterns.
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You need carbs to heal trauma. Your brain needs them.
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Good sources for carbs are honey, dark chocolate, oatmeal. .
Don't binge. Practise moderation. If you are used to paleo / keto diet you might experience your body storing excess water due to the carbs.
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This is normal. You're not ill. Be aware you are free to eat less carbs or more..you can try and adjust what works best for you.
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Stay away from rigid or structured dieting plans. They easily trigger toxic patterns like compulsive counting etc. instead focus on how you feel as you eat. Stop when you have enough. If your old plan gave an exact amount and you feel fine before eating that entire bowl of oats. Stop. Also the other way round. If you're hungrier one day eat more.
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Ignore plans, lists and especially other people's opinions on this.
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This includes my opinion. ;-)
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    Coffee with cinnamon and honey.
    .
    .
    Have you tried it? Here's how I drink it.
    .
    • put 2 teaspoons of freshly ground coffee into french coffee press (tastes better because no filter paper.)
    .
    • pour hot water
    .
    • let sit for as long as you feel is right
    .
    • push down
    .
    • pour into favourite cup
    .
    • add 1 teaspoon of cinammon
    .
    • add half a teaspoon of honey before you stirr, so the cinnamon and honey mix better
    .
    • stirr gently
    .
    .
    If you're right in the middle of processing trauma, it might be good to stay away from coffee for a few weeks.
    .
    When you are further on your healing journey you can start with coffee again.
    The cinnamon and honey help heal your gut. Cinnamon is a gentle disinfectant. Honey provides you with nurturing carbs needed by your brain to grow new glia cells.
    .
    As you're doing your affirmations, visualisations, writing, walking, bibliotherapy, massages etc. whatever it is you're doing to heal...your brain restructures itself. For that it needs carbs. The glia cells build a support network for your neurons. .
    This glia network with all kinds of new paths, pathways in it is the new map of the world you are forming as you are leaving your trauma-reality.
    .
    If you once suffered from an eating disorder or body image issues the idea of eating carbs can cause panick attacks and rigid, controlling ocd patterns.
    .
    You need carbs to heal trauma. Your brain needs them.
    .
    Good sources for carbs are honey, dark chocolate, oatmeal. .
    Don't binge. Practise moderation. If you are used to paleo / keto diet you might experience your body storing excess water due to the carbs.
    .
    This is normal. You're not ill. Be aware you are free to eat less carbs or more..you can try and adjust what works best for you.
    .
    Stay away from rigid or structured dieting plans. They easily trigger toxic patterns like compulsive counting etc. instead focus on how you feel as you eat. Stop when you have enough. If your old plan gave an exact amount and you feel fine before eating that entire bowl of oats. Stop. Also the other way round. If you're hungrier one day eat more.
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    Ignore plans, lists and especially other people's opinions on this.
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    This includes my opinion. ;-)
  • 18 2 7 February, 2020
  • Hell with perfect.
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I choose thrive. .
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Who gets to decide what and who is ‘perfect’ anyway?? .
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YOU.
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Throwback to 2017, when hubby and I were newly married and loved exploring outdoors. I was a homebody,still I am one. But Vimal loves going out and pushes me to get out. .
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Now, different story. 😂Things have changed, and every time we need to get out of the house, we gotta pack a suitcase full( kidding) of diaper, change dress, wipes, milk etc etc. Like we are out for camping. 😅
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Here I am nervously holding onto the railing.A secret about me. .
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I am shit scared of heights.Looking down from hill tops, balcony etc even with a railing.Not very comfortable to look down from our balcony at home. 🙄
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Working on this fear as well slowly. 
Do you have any fears that you working on? Love to know. 💞❤️
  • Hell with perfect.
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    I choose thrive. .
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    Who gets to decide what and who is ‘perfect’ anyway?? .
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    YOU.
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    Throwback to 2017, when hubby and I were newly married and loved exploring outdoors. I was a homebody,still I am one. But Vimal loves going out and pushes me to get out. .
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    Now, different story. 😂Things have changed, and every time we need to get out of the house, we gotta pack a suitcase full( kidding) of diaper, change dress, wipes, milk etc etc. Like we are out for camping. 😅
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    Here I am nervously holding onto the railing.A secret about me. .
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    I am shit scared of heights.Looking down from hill tops, balcony etc even with a railing.Not very comfortable to look down from our balcony at home. 🙄
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    Working on this fear as well slowly.
    Do you have any fears that you working on? Love to know. 💞❤️
  • 13 1 30 January, 2020
  • Hi internet uncle & aunties, 
My name is Evaan. I am a new baby.Some people in NZ pronounce my name as Evan. .
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Then mummy corrects them politely and says its Evaan.She seems so proud of me and everything about me.Like I don’t get it why. Amyway. .
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Then mum dad sit in car and put me in a basket kind of thingy that has ropes that go over all my body- apparently it is for my safety on the move.Looks suspicious to me.Tell you what I hate sitting there. Then I cry. Sometimes I don’t. All depends on my mood you know. .
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Then dad say to mum,”See I said so, if you name him Evaan everyone will call him Evan, you din’t listen to me.”
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Mum say it’s fine baby. But I am the baby.Not daddy?! Daddy steal my name. Not fair. .
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She says she loves my name Evaan or Evan. She said it is just beautiful name just like me.
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I love playing with mummy. She makes funny faces and noises.Then she also has this brick kind of thingy. She has it in her hand always. .
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Similar brick thingy in daddy hand too. Different colour. They both look at it like it is some food.And keep staring at it and some light and noise come out. .
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Tell me now, am I beautiful or that brick thingy?! I want to grab it and see if I can eat it or lick it. But mum dad don’t allow me.Not fair. I get angry. But then mummy pick me and kiss and hug me.
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Then daddy keep brick thingy infront of me and a voice come out. Look like sorcery to me.
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Apparently it’s dadi. She love me lot but stay far. I don’t know to say hi. So I just dribble. Dadi laugh and say it is honey. I don’t get it.I am not bee I am baby. .
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Anywhoo,I came here to say my side of story.Because mummy upload so much stuff about her only, not fair. Okay bye.Mummy go to make some drink in a big tub. Call it coffee.
  • Hi internet uncle & aunties,
    My name is Evaan. I am a new baby.Some people in NZ pronounce my name as Evan. .
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    Then mummy corrects them politely and says its Evaan.She seems so proud of me and everything about me.Like I don’t get it why. Amyway. .
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    Then mum dad sit in car and put me in a basket kind of thingy that has ropes that go over all my body- apparently it is for my safety on the move.Looks suspicious to me.Tell you what I hate sitting there. Then I cry. Sometimes I don’t. All depends on my mood you know. .
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    Then dad say to mum,”See I said so, if you name him Evaan everyone will call him Evan, you din’t listen to me.”
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    Mum say it’s fine baby. But I am the baby.Not daddy?! Daddy steal my name. Not fair. .
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    She says she loves my name Evaan or Evan. She said it is just beautiful name just like me.
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    I love playing with mummy. She makes funny faces and noises.Then she also has this brick kind of thingy. She has it in her hand always. .
    .
    Similar brick thingy in daddy hand too. Different colour. They both look at it like it is some food.And keep staring at it and some light and noise come out. .
    .
    Tell me now, am I beautiful or that brick thingy?! I want to grab it and see if I can eat it or lick it. But mum dad don’t allow me.Not fair. I get angry. But then mummy pick me and kiss and hug me.
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    Then daddy keep brick thingy infront of me and a voice come out. Look like sorcery to me.
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    Apparently it’s dadi. She love me lot but stay far. I don’t know to say hi. So I just dribble. Dadi laugh and say it is honey. I don’t get it.I am not bee I am baby. .
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    Anywhoo,I came here to say my side of story.Because mummy upload so much stuff about her only, not fair. Okay bye.Mummy go to make some drink in a big tub. Call it coffee.
  • 17 1 28 January, 2020
  • Wrong is wrong.
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There's no excuse.
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No justifications.
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For emotional abuse. .
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Victim blaming is shameful. Telling the victim that it's their job to apologize or their job to make things right. Making them feel like they are wrong for not forgiving the abuser. This is just even more psychological abuse. .
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Do not feel shame or guilt for standing up for yourself. You never have to apologize for saying enough is enough. You do not have to "accept it" or "deal with it" or ever just "take it". .
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You can heal. You deserve to heal. No one should stand in the way of you doing what you need to do to heal. .
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#traumarecovery #traumasurvivor #complexptsd #complexptsdsurvivor #selfhealing
  • Wrong is wrong.
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    There's no excuse.
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    No justifications.
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    For emotional abuse. .
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    Victim blaming is shameful. Telling the victim that it's their job to apologize or their job to make things right. Making them feel like they are wrong for not forgiving the abuser. This is just even more psychological abuse. .
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    Do not feel shame or guilt for standing up for yourself. You never have to apologize for saying enough is enough. You do not have to "accept it" or "deal with it" or ever just "take it". .
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    You can heal. You deserve to heal. No one should stand in the way of you doing what you need to do to heal. .
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    #traumarecovery #traumasurvivor #complexptsd #complexptsdsurvivor #selfhealing
  • 14 0 24 January, 2020
  • I attended a wonderful ACT Workshop yesterday in Arlington Heights and I wanted to voice a generalized point of ACT using this Rocky Balboa quote, “You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard you hit. It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward; how much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done!” Being able to move towards your values requires one to look at their behaviors and to make choices that will get one closer to the end result, not further away. 
The 9 Domains values usually are defined by can include but are not limited to: Education, Intimacy/Relationship/Marriage, Friendships, Spirituality, Citizenship, Parenting, Career, & Recreation. Start with the most important domain and make itty bitty steps to get closer to your ideal envisioned life. One can be struggling and carry these negative beliefs and STILL move forward. People can commonly justify why they can’t do something and create an unwarranted paired association that may not be conducive towards goal and value achievement!

#ACT #PESI #LSW #borderlinefather #complexptsdsurvivor #nevertoolatetoadjustthesail #moms60th #minivacay ⛵️ 🧠 📚💜
  • I attended a wonderful ACT Workshop yesterday in Arlington Heights and I wanted to voice a generalized point of ACT using this Rocky Balboa quote, “You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard you hit. It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward; how much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done!” Being able to move towards your values requires one to look at their behaviors and to make choices that will get one closer to the end result, not further away.
    The 9 Domains values usually are defined by can include but are not limited to: Education, Intimacy/Relationship/Marriage, Friendships, Spirituality, Citizenship, Parenting, Career, & Recreation. Start with the most important domain and make itty bitty steps to get closer to your ideal envisioned life. One can be struggling and carry these negative beliefs and STILL move forward. People can commonly justify why they can’t do something and create an unwarranted paired association that may not be conducive towards goal and value achievement!

    #ACT #PESI #LSW #borderlinefather #complexptsdsurvivor #nevertoolatetoadjustthesail #moms60th #minivacay ⛵️ 🧠 📚💜
  • 28 1 23 January, 2020
  • This is my babe. And today is his birthday, so I have come here to just really write how I feel.

Though we both manage to drive each other up the wall sometimes, I have a lot of love, adoration and respect for this man. 
Quiet,curious,witty,well read,a free thinker,kind,brave,sensitive,nurturing,shy,hard working,a loving husband and a great example for our son.

Also a treasure of knowledge on politics,history,volcanoes,wars and mankind,thank you for answering the zillions of questions I ask everytime we sit down to watch a documentary, with patience always.😅
Cheers babe! ♥️
Wish you a great year ahead and look forward to seeing you grow both as a person and a father.
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For fiesty and real life content written by an indian woman, follow thesouthindiankiwi.I share stuff about women’s well being, personal development, lifestyle,finance and frugal living.
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  • This is my babe. And today is his birthday, so I have come here to just really write how I feel.

    Though we both manage to drive each other up the wall sometimes, I have a lot of love, adoration and respect for this man.
    Quiet,curious,witty,well read,a free thinker,kind,brave,sensitive,nurturing,shy,hard working,a loving husband and a great example for our son.

    Also a treasure of knowledge on politics,history,volcanoes,wars and mankind,thank you for answering the zillions of questions I ask everytime we sit down to watch a documentary, with patience always.😅
    Cheers babe! ♥️
    Wish you a great year ahead and look forward to seeing you grow both as a person and a father.
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    For fiesty and real life content written by an indian woman, follow thesouthindiankiwi.I share stuff about women’s well being, personal development, lifestyle,finance and frugal living.
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  • 22 1 16 January, 2020
  • This was a time when so much of my life felt out of my control .
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This was the day I lost trust in two of my family members. I reached out that day to talk on the phone. I wasn’t in life threatening danger. I was being reckless, but not life or death. They didn’t listen .
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This was the form I was handed that day when police and a psychiatrist nurse brought me to emergency to be assessed by a doctor. You don’t even know how ANGRY I was. I was about ready to do something rlly fckn stupid out of feeling trapped in a place I didn’t want to be .
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I got formed/sectioned to stay, then they quickly realized I was not in psychosis and I managed to walk out a few hours later. Take that, family lol just kidding. They thought they were helping. Long story. Gonna tell it in more detail one of these days. .
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Imagine how scary it must be when someone actually DOES get admitted! Having things done to you against your will can be very triggering. Stigma from society added onto that can be soul-crushing. We don’t do this on purpose. Remember that it’s possible to accept every person in this world if you choose to 💙🙏 .
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Not Sorry
Love,
Lori .
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#paperwork #complexptsdsurvivor #policeofficer #formed #hospitalized #mentalillness #psychiatry #psychiatrist #emergencyroom #sectioned #betrayal #psychology #howtohelp #reckless #epicfail #assessment #emergencyroom #endstigma #stigma #stigmafree #nomoreexcuses
  • This was a time when so much of my life felt out of my control .
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    This was the day I lost trust in two of my family members. I reached out that day to talk on the phone. I wasn’t in life threatening danger. I was being reckless, but not life or death. They didn’t listen .
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    This was the form I was handed that day when police and a psychiatrist nurse brought me to emergency to be assessed by a doctor. You don’t even know how ANGRY I was. I was about ready to do something rlly fckn stupid out of feeling trapped in a place I didn’t want to be .
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    I got formed/sectioned to stay, then they quickly realized I was not in psychosis and I managed to walk out a few hours later. Take that, family lol just kidding. They thought they were helping. Long story. Gonna tell it in more detail one of these days. .
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    Imagine how scary it must be when someone actually DOES get admitted! Having things done to you against your will can be very triggering. Stigma from society added onto that can be soul-crushing. We don’t do this on purpose. Remember that it’s possible to accept every person in this world if you choose to 💙🙏 .
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    Not Sorry
    Love,
    Lori .
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    #paperwork #complexptsdsurvivor #policeofficer #formed #hospitalized #mentalillness #psychiatry #psychiatrist #emergencyroom #sectioned #betrayal #psychology #howtohelp #reckless #epicfail #assessment #emergencyroom #endstigma #stigma #stigmafree #nomoreexcuses
  • 35 8 9 January, 2020
  • @whywomendontleave
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I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow.  It should be a routine thing for me as I practically live at the doctors.  Unfortunately at the last doctor's appointment I went to, it was so traumatizing that I am still struggling.  Ever since I almost died during the birth of my son I have struggled with PTSD around medical issues and trusting doctors. It is very hard for me to trust anyone,  especially doctors.  I have a very complex medical history. I require a highly skilled doctor who has experience.  Since the last few doctor appointments I have had were very difficult for me, I have been struggling to keep going. This is one of the hardest things about living with Complex PTSD.  This might not be rational (of course it's not) but I am terrified of being yelled at. My fear of being yelled at is so great that just the thought of it brings tears to my eyes. Even over the phone if someone yells at me I will become hysterical.  My service dog will come to me anytime I answer the phone just in case. Because in my past, yelling meant I was going to be hurt. Getting in trouble meant being punished.  And the doctor's office was suppose to be a safe place. But now that I have had these issues with this doctor it's no longer safe. Because if it happens once it can happen again. This is how my traumatized mind thinks. I will go. I will get through it because I have to. But I wish people understood the impact there behavior can have on people.  I am seriously struggling because  of what this jerk did and it was so unnecessary.  So much of our pain and suffering is unnecessary.  We need more kindness and compassion for each other.  Life is hard enough without making it harder. 
#whywomendontleave #domesticabuse #complexptsd #domesticviolence #dv #domesticabuseawareness
#complexptsdsurvivor
#ptsdsurvivor 
#ptsd
#trauma
#trust
#anxiety 
#panic
#distrust
#fear
  • @whywomendontleave
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    I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow. It should be a routine thing for me as I practically live at the doctors. Unfortunately at the last doctor's appointment I went to, it was so traumatizing that I am still struggling. Ever since I almost died during the birth of my son I have struggled with PTSD around medical issues and trusting doctors. It is very hard for me to trust anyone, especially doctors. I have a very complex medical history. I require a highly skilled doctor who has experience. Since the last few doctor appointments I have had were very difficult for me, I have been struggling to keep going. This is one of the hardest things about living with Complex PTSD. This might not be rational (of course it's not) but I am terrified of being yelled at. My fear of being yelled at is so great that just the thought of it brings tears to my eyes. Even over the phone if someone yells at me I will become hysterical. My service dog will come to me anytime I answer the phone just in case. Because in my past, yelling meant I was going to be hurt. Getting in trouble meant being punished. And the doctor's office was suppose to be a safe place. But now that I have had these issues with this doctor it's no longer safe. Because if it happens once it can happen again. This is how my traumatized mind thinks. I will go. I will get through it because I have to. But I wish people understood the impact there behavior can have on people. I am seriously struggling because of what this jerk did and it was so unnecessary. So much of our pain and suffering is unnecessary. We need more kindness and compassion for each other. Life is hard enough without making it harder.
    #whywomendontleave #domesticabuse #complexptsd #domesticviolence #dv #domesticabuseawareness
    #complexptsdsurvivor
    #ptsdsurvivor
    #ptsd
    #trauma
    #trust
    #anxiety
    #panic
    #distrust
    #fear
  • 1 0 5 January, 2020
  • I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow.  It should be a routine thing for me as I practically live at the doctors.  Unfortunately at the last doctor's appointment I went to, it was so traumatizing that I am still struggling.  Ever since I almost died during the birth of my son I have struggled with PTSD around medical issues and trusting doctors. It is very hard for me to trust anyone,  especially doctors.  I have a very complex medical history. I require a highly skilled doctor who has experience.  Since the last few doctor appointments I have had were very difficult for me, I have been struggling to keep going. This is one of the hardest things about living with Complex PTSD.  This might not be rational (of course it's not) but I am terrified of being yelled at. My fear of being yelled at is so great that just the thought of it brings tears to my eyes. Even over the phone if someone yells at me I will become hysterical.  My service dog will come to me anytime I answer the phone just in case. Because in my past, yelling meant I was going to be hurt. Getting in trouble meant being punished.  And the doctor's office was suppose to be a safe place. But now that I have had these issues with this doctor it's no longer safe. Because if it happens once it can happen again. This is how my traumatized mind thinks. I will go. I will get through it because I have to. But I wish people understood the impact there behavior can have on people.  I am seriously struggling because  of what this jerk did and it was so unnecessary.  So much of our pain and suffering is unnecessary.  We need more kindness and compassion for each other.  Life is hard enough without making it harder. 
#whywomendontleave #domesticabuse #complexptsd #domesticviolence #dv #domesticabuseawareness
#complexptsdsurvivor
#ptsdsurvivor 
#ptsd
#trauma
#trust
#anxiety 
#panic
#distrust
#fear
  • I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow. It should be a routine thing for me as I practically live at the doctors. Unfortunately at the last doctor's appointment I went to, it was so traumatizing that I am still struggling. Ever since I almost died during the birth of my son I have struggled with PTSD around medical issues and trusting doctors. It is very hard for me to trust anyone, especially doctors. I have a very complex medical history. I require a highly skilled doctor who has experience. Since the last few doctor appointments I have had were very difficult for me, I have been struggling to keep going. This is one of the hardest things about living with Complex PTSD. This might not be rational (of course it's not) but I am terrified of being yelled at. My fear of being yelled at is so great that just the thought of it brings tears to my eyes. Even over the phone if someone yells at me I will become hysterical. My service dog will come to me anytime I answer the phone just in case. Because in my past, yelling meant I was going to be hurt. Getting in trouble meant being punished. And the doctor's office was suppose to be a safe place. But now that I have had these issues with this doctor it's no longer safe. Because if it happens once it can happen again. This is how my traumatized mind thinks. I will go. I will get through it because I have to. But I wish people understood the impact there behavior can have on people. I am seriously struggling because of what this jerk did and it was so unnecessary. So much of our pain and suffering is unnecessary. We need more kindness and compassion for each other. Life is hard enough without making it harder.
    #whywomendontleave #domesticabuse #complexptsd #domesticviolence #dv #domesticabuseawareness
    #complexptsdsurvivor
    #ptsdsurvivor
    #ptsd
    #trauma
    #trust
    #anxiety
    #panic
    #distrust
    #fear
  • 203 18 2 January, 2020
  • 👂👂listen up you beautiful human beings....Sarah @_mental_health_warrior_ is diagnosed with complex PTSD and borderline personality disorder and reminds others to BE AWARE of what your mind🧠 and body🏃🏻‍♀️ is telling you❤️ listen to your thoughts💭 and body and respect it!
  • 👂👂listen up you beautiful human beings....Sarah @_mental_health_warrior_ is diagnosed with complex PTSD and borderline personality disorder and reminds others to BE AWARE of what your mind🧠 and body🏃🏻‍♀️ is telling you❤️ listen to your thoughts💭 and body and respect it!
  • 33 2 2 December, 2019
  • Your emotions and feelings are valid... don't let anyone ever tell you something different... it's your life... your journey 
@get_repost Thanks to @consciouslythere
  • Your emotions and feelings are valid... don't let anyone ever tell you something different... it's your life... your journey
    @get_repost Thanks to @consciouslythere
  • 10 2 11 November, 2019
  • If I could go back in time I'd love my little inner child so much... I'd tell her she's beautiful and clever and smart and that she can do anything she ever wants to do in life if she believes she can... I would tell her she can achieve anything and everything that the world is her oyster... I would tell her to spread her wings and fly free... reach for the stars... reach for her dreams... mostly I would tell her and show her how very loved she is... no matter what... that's what I'd tell her...
@get_repost thanks to @ptsdcomplex_recovery
  • If I could go back in time I'd love my little inner child so much... I'd tell her she's beautiful and clever and smart and that she can do anything she ever wants to do in life if she believes she can... I would tell her she can achieve anything and everything that the world is her oyster... I would tell her to spread her wings and fly free... reach for the stars... reach for her dreams... mostly I would tell her and show her how very loved she is... no matter what... that's what I'd tell her...
    @get_repost thanks to @ptsdcomplex_recovery
  • 20 2 7 November, 2019
  • Instead of telling survivors to “let it go”, “move on” and “forget the past”, which isn’t helpful and very insensitive. 
Try acknowledging their past, remind them that maybe they can’t change it, but they don’t have to live in pain from it anymore. Help them find supports, encourage them to get help. 
Trauma can’t be forgotten but it can be managed and encouragement and love  and simply just “being there”, is much more supportive, compassionate and helpful than “move on”. #complexptsd #complexptsdawareness #complexptsdsurvivor #love #trauma
  • Instead of telling survivors to “let it go”, “move on” and “forget the past”, which isn’t helpful and very insensitive.
    Try acknowledging their past, remind them that maybe they can’t change it, but they don’t have to live in pain from it anymore. Help them find supports, encourage them to get help.
    Trauma can’t be forgotten but it can be managed and encouragement and love and simply just “being there”, is much more supportive, compassionate and helpful than “move on”. #complexptsd #complexptsdawareness #complexptsdsurvivor #love #trauma
  • 273 7 25 October, 2019
  • Posted @withrepost • @heathertuba This list is not exhaustive, but if you did not experience trauma, attachment disruptions, or chronic overwhelm during childhood development, you may feel confused by the behaviours, emotions, or responses of someone you love who did experience the above.⠀
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As childhood trauma happens during development, there are neurobiological, psychological, and behavioural responses that form. These do not change by willpower or simply a desire to change. They take time, new skills, new neural pathways, and intentional work. ⠀
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The contents of this list come directly from my personal experience as a partner. These are all things on which I have had to educate myself in order to ‘understand’ my partner’s challenges. (They are also the things I discuss in my coaching work.)⠀
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If you are a supporter/partner/friend, I would love to know what you find hard to understand. Let me know in the comments and I can add your thoughts to a future list.⠀
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#complexptsd #trauma #childhoodtrauma #cptsd #complexptsdsurvivor #cptsdrecovery #healing #recovery #traumahealing #traumatherapy #marriageandfamily #relationship #relationships #traumasurvivor #traumasurvivors #healingtrauma #traumarecovery
  • Posted @withrepost@heathertuba This list is not exhaustive, but if you did not experience trauma, attachment disruptions, or chronic overwhelm during childhood development, you may feel confused by the behaviours, emotions, or responses of someone you love who did experience the above.⠀

    As childhood trauma happens during development, there are neurobiological, psychological, and behavioural responses that form. These do not change by willpower or simply a desire to change. They take time, new skills, new neural pathways, and intentional work. ⠀

    The contents of this list come directly from my personal experience as a partner. These are all things on which I have had to educate myself in order to ‘understand’ my partner’s challenges. (They are also the things I discuss in my coaching work.)⠀

    If you are a supporter/partner/friend, I would love to know what you find hard to understand. Let me know in the comments and I can add your thoughts to a future list.⠀

    #complexptsd #trauma #childhoodtrauma #cptsd #complexptsdsurvivor #cptsdrecovery #healing #recovery #traumahealing #traumatherapy #marriageandfamily #relationship #relationships #traumasurvivor #traumasurvivors #healingtrauma #traumarecovery
  • 18 0 23 October, 2019
  • Posted @withrepost • @heathertuba This list is not exhaustive, but if you did not experience trauma, attachment disruptions, or chronic overwhelm during childhood development, you may feel confused by the behaviours, emotions, or responses of someone you love who did experience the above.⠀
⠀
As childhood trauma happens during development, there are neurobiological, psychological, and behavioural responses that form. These do not change by willpower or simply a desire to change. They take time, new skills, new neural pathways, and intentional work. ⠀
⠀
The contents of this list come directly from my personal experience as a partner. These are all things on which I have had to educate myself in order to ‘understand’ my partner’s challenges. (They are also the things I discuss in my coaching work.)⠀
⠀
If you are a supporter/partner/friend, I would love to know what you find hard to understand. Let me know in the comments and I can add your thoughts to a future list.⠀
⠀
#complexptsd #trauma #childhoodtrauma #cptsd #complexptsdsurvivor #cptsdrecovery #healing #recovery #traumahealing #traumatherapy #marriageandfamily #relationship #relationships #traumasurvivor #traumasurvivors #healingtrauma #traumarecovery
  • Posted @withrepost@heathertuba This list is not exhaustive, but if you did not experience trauma, attachment disruptions, or chronic overwhelm during childhood development, you may feel confused by the behaviours, emotions, or responses of someone you love who did experience the above.⠀

    As childhood trauma happens during development, there are neurobiological, psychological, and behavioural responses that form. These do not change by willpower or simply a desire to change. They take time, new skills, new neural pathways, and intentional work. ⠀

    The contents of this list come directly from my personal experience as a partner. These are all things on which I have had to educate myself in order to ‘understand’ my partner’s challenges. (They are also the things I discuss in my coaching work.)⠀

    If you are a supporter/partner/friend, I would love to know what you find hard to understand. Let me know in the comments and I can add your thoughts to a future list.⠀

    #complexptsd #trauma #childhoodtrauma #cptsd #complexptsdsurvivor #cptsdrecovery #healing #recovery #traumahealing #traumatherapy #marriageandfamily #relationship #relationships #traumasurvivor #traumasurvivors #healingtrauma #traumarecovery
  • 31 3 22 October, 2019
  • Reposted from @heathertuba -  This list is not exhaustive, but if you did not experience trauma, attachment disruptions, or chronic overwhelm during childhood development, you may feel confused by the behaviours, emotions, or responses of someone you love who did experience the above.⠀
⠀
As childhood trauma happens during development, there are neurobiological, psychological, and behavioural responses that form. These do not change by willpower or simply a desire to change. They take time, new skills, new neural pathways, and intentional work. ⠀
⠀
The contents of this list come directly from my personal experience as a partner. These are all things on which I have had to educate myself in order to ‘understand’ my partner’s challenges. (They are also the things I discuss in my coaching work.)⠀
⠀
If you are a supporter/partner/friend, I would love to know what you find hard to understand. Let me know in the comments and I can add your thoughts to a future list.⠀
⠀
#complexptsd #trauma #childhoodtrauma #cptsd #complexptsdsurvivor #cptsdrecovery #healing #recovery #traumahealing #traumatherapy #marriageandfamily #relationship #relationships #traumasurvivor #traumasurvivors #healingtrauma #traumarecovery
  • Reposted from @heathertuba - This list is not exhaustive, but if you did not experience trauma, attachment disruptions, or chronic overwhelm during childhood development, you may feel confused by the behaviours, emotions, or responses of someone you love who did experience the above.⠀

    As childhood trauma happens during development, there are neurobiological, psychological, and behavioural responses that form. These do not change by willpower or simply a desire to change. They take time, new skills, new neural pathways, and intentional work. ⠀

    The contents of this list come directly from my personal experience as a partner. These are all things on which I have had to educate myself in order to ‘understand’ my partner’s challenges. (They are also the things I discuss in my coaching work.)⠀

    If you are a supporter/partner/friend, I would love to know what you find hard to understand. Let me know in the comments and I can add your thoughts to a future list.⠀

    #complexptsd #trauma #childhoodtrauma #cptsd #complexptsdsurvivor #cptsdrecovery #healing #recovery #traumahealing #traumatherapy #marriageandfamily #relationship #relationships #traumasurvivor #traumasurvivors #healingtrauma #traumarecovery
  • 7 0 21 October, 2019
  • This list is not exhaustive, but if you did not experience trauma, attachment disruptions, or chronic overwhelm during childhood development, you may feel confused by the behaviours, emotions, or responses of someone you love who did experience the above.⠀
⠀
As childhood trauma happens during development, there are neurobiological, psychological, and behavioural responses that form. These do not change by willpower or simply a desire to change. They take time, new skills, new neural pathways, and intentional work. ⠀
⠀
The contents of this list come directly from my personal experience as a partner. These are all things on which I have had to educate myself in order to ‘understand’ my partner’s challenges. (They are also the things I discuss in my coaching work.)⠀
⠀
If you are a supporter/partner/friend, I would love to know what you find hard to understand. Let me know in the comments and I can add your thoughts to a future list.⠀
⠀
#complexptsd #trauma #childhoodtrauma #cptsd #complexptsdsurvivor #cptsdrecovery #healing #recovery #traumahealing #traumatherapy #marriageandfamily #relationship #relationships #traumasurvivor #traumasurvivors #healingtrauma #traumarecovery
  • This list is not exhaustive, but if you did not experience trauma, attachment disruptions, or chronic overwhelm during childhood development, you may feel confused by the behaviours, emotions, or responses of someone you love who did experience the above.⠀

    As childhood trauma happens during development, there are neurobiological, psychological, and behavioural responses that form. These do not change by willpower or simply a desire to change. They take time, new skills, new neural pathways, and intentional work. ⠀

    The contents of this list come directly from my personal experience as a partner. These are all things on which I have had to educate myself in order to ‘understand’ my partner’s challenges. (They are also the things I discuss in my coaching work.)⠀

    If you are a supporter/partner/friend, I would love to know what you find hard to understand. Let me know in the comments and I can add your thoughts to a future list.⠀

    #complexptsd #trauma #childhoodtrauma #cptsd #complexptsdsurvivor #cptsdrecovery #healing #recovery #traumahealing #traumatherapy #marriageandfamily #relationship #relationships #traumasurvivor #traumasurvivors #healingtrauma #traumarecovery
  • 1,913 64 21 October, 2019
  • So today is going to be a sofa day, don’t be afraid to have a self care day where you just do nothing. Your worth is not dictated by what you get done in a day. I’m so tired, I battled through yesterday but today I’m listening to my body and I’m going to become one with my sofa. I’m going to let my body sleep as much as it wants rather than consistently fighting to try and keep a “normal” sleep pattern. Be kind to yourself today, listen to your body and ignore the guilt. #mentelhealth #mentalhealthawareness #selfcareday #selfcarelove #complexptsdrecovery #complexptsd #complexptsdsurvivor #youarenotalone
  • So today is going to be a sofa day, don’t be afraid to have a self care day where you just do nothing. Your worth is not dictated by what you get done in a day. I’m so tired, I battled through yesterday but today I’m listening to my body and I’m going to become one with my sofa. I’m going to let my body sleep as much as it wants rather than consistently fighting to try and keep a “normal” sleep pattern. Be kind to yourself today, listen to your body and ignore the guilt. #mentelhealth #mentalhealthawareness #selfcareday #selfcarelove #complexptsdrecovery #complexptsd #complexptsdsurvivor #youarenotalone
  • 10 1 20 October, 2019
  • Healing trauma and complex PTSD can be extremely challenging , and there will be many days when you might feel like giving up.

But I've found that by Reconnecting To My Deeper Self and following the gentle voice of my intuition, I am able to overcome many things and
ride out many storms.

Stepping back into inner alignment by following your heart and dreams is one of the most powerful motivators there is.
It will keep you on the healing path because -
In order to create and live your best life you MUST do some
Shadow Dancing - You must :

Face and release your inner pain - look those demons in the eye.
You must untangle and let go of those limiting belief structures.
You must transform dysfunctional thinking and emotional patterns.
You must let go of the past - If you want a "lighter"  future of freedom,
you cannot take that heavy, old baggage with you.

So Follow Your Heart and Create a Compelling Future in the Now.

#followyourheart❤️ #followyourheartfirst #followyourdreams💭✨ #followyourdreams✨ #cptsdwarrior #narcissisticrecovery #cptsdrecoverytools #healingcptsd #liveyourbestlifetoday #healtrauma #narcissisticparent #complexptsdsurvivor #innerwork #cptsdawareness
  • Healing trauma and complex PTSD can be extremely challenging , and there will be many days when you might feel like giving up.

    But I've found that by Reconnecting To My Deeper Self and following the gentle voice of my intuition, I am able to overcome many things and
    ride out many storms.

    Stepping back into inner alignment by following your heart and dreams is one of the most powerful motivators there is.
    It will keep you on the healing path because -
    In order to create and live your best life you MUST do some
    Shadow Dancing - You must :

    Face and release your inner pain - look those demons in the eye.
    You must untangle and let go of those limiting belief structures.
    You must transform dysfunctional thinking and emotional patterns.
    You must let go of the past - If you want a "lighter" future of freedom,
    you cannot take that heavy, old baggage with you.

    So Follow Your Heart and Create a Compelling Future in the Now.

    #followyourheart ❤️ #followyourheartfirst #followyourdreams 💭✨ #followyourdreams#cptsdwarrior #narcissisticrecovery #cptsdrecoverytools #healingcptsd #liveyourbestlifetoday #healtrauma #narcissisticparent #complexptsdsurvivor #innerwork #cptsdawareness
  • 14 6 10 October, 2019