F IN MATH— I was a freshman hs; I first felt and saw what judgment was truly like. As a consistent leader and honor roll student, that was such big news to many. I get the surprise, but I didn’t get the judgment.
I didn’t think grades truly reflect a character of a person. Mom knew I’ve always excelled in school; when she found out “Well are you going to do something about it? I know you’re smart. But is there something you needed to tell me?”. —My parents were in the US for 4y: “This is for your future.” It was never easy. I refused to understand it.➰I stopped caring what I used to care about. I couldn’t recall much. I just remembered taking life one day at a time. Then I became the VP of the student gov’t. You’d think grades mattered right? Then life continued.
✌🏻 I was getting better at adapting to change; learning how (extremely) complex life can be. Make things simple and if it makes you happy, that’s all you need. It wasn’t enough for me to be okay with what’s working anymore. If I can do more and had to change, I shift. I left a position I devoted almost my entire time for. It shattered my core but I gained an entirely different perspective after that. 🌊 Isn’t life funny? You gotta let go, to gain something? So much truth. Relationships, career- all the same cycle.
The momentum never stopped.🔥 My mantra goes “Move the fuck forward.” Never ashamed of failing. Starting from anywhere didn’t scare me and I never felt sorry for that. Others are in much worse situations. I stay grateful for everything.
🙏🏼 I’m staying up researching articles-getting as much resources in this new venture.💯There will be shorter days, longer work hours. Timelines might not always be achieved. I’m okay with things failing so I learn something.