That’s right. YOU LOOK GOOOOOD on that sofa. Currently off to nap number 2 myself. How many naps you going for? My goal is 5 before I have to socialize with my family tonight.
12848 hours ago
Доброе утро)🌞 ⠀
✨Утро, правда, не очень доброе. Я проснулся и пошёл на кухню пить воду холодную по традиции, а там сидит брат и жрет из моей тарелки. Меня это просто взбесило. Я не терплю, когда трогают мои вещи, а тем более, когда я об этом предупреждал. Будь то компьютер, книга, телефон, посуда, еда. У меня случилась истерика... Маяковский, например, не ел чужими столовыми приборами. Так что у всех свои странности. Больше я из этой тарелки есть не буду. К счастью, у меня есть вторая.
✨Не сочтите мои истерике за полный бред. Просто для брезгливого человека, да ещё и с рпп, это катастрофа.
✨Вас тоже жесть, когда трогают ваши вещи без разрешения?
1)Чай «Весенняя мелодия»;
2)Йогурт «Даниссимо» с апельсином, шоколадной крошкой и ванилью;
414816 hours ago
(🇵🇱/🇺🇸)U nas pół wegańsko, a pół tradycyjnie🥰🌿jak cudownie mieć rodzinę, która respektuje twoje wybory i nie zmusza Cię do zjedzenia kiełbasy czy jajek 😍 my mamy wegański i tradycyjny mazurek, wegańskie i mięsne kiełbasy, sałatkę jarzynową z jajecznym i weganskim majonezem (od @bezmiesnymiesny który btw smakuje w 99% jak majonez Winiary!!😂) i tak dalej.. jestem ogromnie wdzieczna, za to, że mogę być tym, kim chcę💪🏼 a przy okazji pokazywać rodzinie, że #wegańskie wcale nie znaczy gorsze😼
Przede wszystkim chce wam życzyć spokojnych, pełnych pokoju i miłości świąt. Miłości do bliskich, do kazdego kto jest dla was ważny no i oczywiście do samego siebie! Bo to jest najważniejsze. Dajcie sobie ten dzień czy dwa na to, by wreszcie siebie pokochać i się sobą zaopiekować, bo każdy z was na to zasługuje❤️
Proszę, nie zadreczajcie i nie stresujcie się w te święta jedzeniem. To naprawdę jest najmniej ważne; jasne, miło zjeść sniadanie w niedzielę w gronie rodziny, ale skupcie się na tym, że jesteście razem, że macie czas na to by odpocząć. Jeżeli wierzycie, to wyciszcie się i pomyślcie jak wielki cud dzieje się wokoło.
Nie zmuszajcie się do jedzenia. Zróbcie tak, by również z nim mieć w tym czasie dobrą relacje, bo ono nie jest waszym wrogiem. Uważam, ze to nie powinien być czas by na sile pokonywać jakieś bariery i przeszkody. Jeśli boicie się zjeść jajka w majonezie czy słodkiego mazurka, to nie róbcie tego. Może to nie ten czas, za rok będzie kolejna okazja. Może wystarczy ze ukroicie sobie mały kawałek i to też będzie mały krok w przód 💪🏼
Oczywście, nie mówię, że nie macie jeść nic. Elementem dbania i kochania siebie jest jedzenie. Chodzi tylko o to, by nie zajmowało wam ono głowy. Wrzućcie na luz🤪 od kilku kalorii więcej nie przytyjecie - zapewniam was. Jeżeli macie ochote, to się nie ograniczajcie. Jednak jeżeli przez cały dzień macie potem myslec o tym ile zjedliście czy spędzać czas na spalaniu słodkości to może nie warto.
To proste- jedzcie z głową🌞
Oprócz tego cieszcie się słońcem i ludźmi wokół i spróbujecie oderwać się od tego, co na codzień dla was jest trudne.
Jasne, święta to dla niektórych stresujący czas, sama tego doświadczam. 👇🏼(cd)
134205 hours ago
I'm so proud of meee🤘🏻. After a very long time I made my first homemade makis😍. They were so good! I defo gonna make them again🤤. Instead of rice (I didn't have at home) I used mashed white beans with spices and it was even better than rice (in my opinion hehe🤓). 🍴dEATS: •Nori •Mashed white beans with salt,pepper,cumin and paprika •Cucumber •carrot 🍴
TASTY ⚡️ TURMOIL - Bubblegum Bowl🌸
If you live near a @shopritestores or @wegmans you MUST buy yourself some frozen jackfruit. It has been a smoothie bowl GAME CHANGER. *Warning* they smell like 🤢 on their own, but they’re natures bubblegum and they make smoothies so freakin #thiccc 👏🏻
⚡️2 frozen bananas + 4 jackfruit bulbs @thejackfruitco + 1/3 cup frozen @pitayaplus + 1/2 cup frozen cauli + 1/4 package silken tofu + 2 Tbs vanilla protein + vanilla cashew milk @elmhurst1925 + BLEND⚡️
⚡️1/2 crushed @alyssascookies + salty & sweet granola @safeandfair + creamy pb + coconut shreds⚡️
On Thursday I spent 6 hours finishing my art project. It took almost 15 hours total to make and it still looks awful, what’s up with that? Oh yeah it’s because I’m bad at everything, I forgot about that for a second. Nah but for real, sometimes I wish I was really good at something. I know hard work has a big part to do with being good at stuff and a big part of me not being good at anything definitely has to do with the fact that I don’t put in the effort I should but some of it also has to do with pure talent of which I don’t have for anything. I don’t know, I guess I don’t see the point of even trying at things because I feel like no matter what I do or how much I try, I’ll never be good enough at anything. The one thing I feel like I can actually do somewhat successfully is starve myself and lose weight, even if it’ll never be enough, and lately I haven’t even been able to do that.
Fell back into some old habits today...
Woke up super early and was hungry but all I had was a nurtigrain bar and some coffee bc I was going with friends later and I wasn't sure weather to eat or not(even though we met at 1) first mistake-restricted breakfast. Second mistake is I decided not eat lunch. Again we were meeting up at 1 and I thought I shouldn't eat anything and save room to compensate. Ended up so hungry by 12 and ate a granola bar. Still hungry. So finally we got to the place and I got a less than filling, not so great, overpriced smoothie bowl. I was literally shaking and my hands turned purple while eating bc I deprived my body all day from protein and propee nutrients. Came home and started to get hungry again but started to cry bc I was scared to continue to eat. By 5:30 I was starving. I felt so sick I was so hungry. Ate a spoonful of pb for the protein but finally went out and ate Chinese for dinner. Ate a ton(to me) and feel so guilty and disappointed at how I ate today. I did not eat nearly enough. I need to learn how to eat normal and not restrict before or after to meals to "compensate" for it. I will do better tomorrow. With my moms help(had a meltdown in front of her earlier and she helped me eat something) I am going to start eating 3 full sized meals and at least 1 snack every day. Not just 2 small meals, ans decent sized one and a small snack like I've been doing. Becase I ended feeling worse and more sick when I didn't eat then when I eat. And I wasted a great conversation with my friend bc I was shaky:( setbacks are apart of recovery. They just push me to try harder
2025 minutes ago
morning, I hope your life’s are going better than mine 🙃
One of the hardest parts of recovery for me, and for so many people that have struggled with any form of ED or disordered eating, can be the lack of hunger and fullness cues.
So often I find myself restricting (even when I’m pushing for recovery) because I don’t feel hungry and I forget to eat. And other times I give into my ED and don’t eat even when I remember I need to because recovery isn’t linear.
But tonight, with an empty house and no one around to remind me to eat dinner, I am making the recovery choice and I am eating. I am practicing mechanical eating and eating by the clock. ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••
Not only am I eating, but I am eating something that sounded good to me regardless of the little voice inside my head telling me to have something “healthier”.
Recovery isn’t always fun and I’m no where near perfect in my recovery, but I’m slowly learning to put one foot in front of the other and take the next step in the right direction.
Merienda (18:30): 🍴Mates + Cookie integral con chips🍪🍴
Esta es la merienda a la que tanto miedo le tenía. Porque iba a ser improvisada y con un chico que estoy conociendo. Al final me fue bastante bien y pude comer media cookie y un pedacito de manzana. No pude consumir el yogurt que tengo que comer por día pero bueno. La verdad el pibe me hace sentir súper cómoda y es un amor💕 así que estamos bien👍🏻💆🏼♀️
Esattamente, un #diciottesimo il giorno prima di Pasqua, ovviamente la mia mente mi ha fatto pensare "per il peggio" ma si sbagliava. Il #compleanno era di una mia compagna di classe 🔞 e sarebbe stata una serata fantastica se non fosse che mi sono sentita terribilmente sola e il bello che a farmi sentire così sono quelle che dovrebbero essere le mie amiche in classe, la situazione è migliorata quando ho iniziato a ballare 💃 ma appunto anche allora ho ballato da sola. Adesso però non voglio concentrarmi sulle cose negative, sono contenta di esserci andata e non essermi tirata indietro sia per timore del pranzo di domani ma sopratutto per timore di essere a disagio. Buonanotte bellezze, ricordatevi e ricordiamoci che un passo in più fuori dalla zona confort è meglio di uno in meno 💜 #anoressianervosaitalia#anorexianervosa#anorexiarecovery#eatingdisorder#iwillbefreeagain#food#foodporn#cibo#eatiittobeatit#anawho#freedom#recovery#siamopiufortinoi 🏆
honestly it breaks my heart
my last account got deleted
so here i am starting a new one
breakfast: oatmeal (300 cals)
lunch: caesar salad (600 cals)
dinner: sushi (500 cals)
total: 1400 cals
sw: 63.5 kg / 140 lbs
cw: 56 kg / 123.5 lbs
gw1: 52 kg / 114.6 lbs
4157 minutes ago
snack - LOFTUS BLONDIE!!! 😍
I'm not even exaggerating when I say this is the BEST thing I've ever eaten, it was the perfect mix of gooey/cakey which every brownie should be like!
Ive just got home from work (12am) and I'm actually STARVING hungry, I worked for 6 hours and my phone step counter says I walked 8km!! So ofc I listened to my body and had a snack!
This was a real challenge for me because I had a brownie yesterday and my body image is suppperrrr bad atm and anorexia is telling me one brownie is enough, I defo can't have 2 on consecutive days!!
It's also a challenge because its so late at night, I normally don't eat after 9pm MAX, so 12am is a massive challenge!
However, I'm hungry so I need to listen to my body and eat - also these brownies were made for ME, why should I just leave them on a box on the side till they go off and not eat them?????
I don't regret it at the moment, the blondie was AMAZING, I'm still going to eat breakfast tomorrow because my body DESERVES to be nourished and I might even still have some chocolate because its Easter! #recovery#anoreixarecovery#eatingdisorder#gettinghelp#dumpthescale#gettingbetter#mentalhealth#food#foodgood#help#eating#happy#ed#edrecovery#eatingdisorder#eatingdisorderrecovery#strongnotskinny#breakfast#eattobeat#eating#eatittobeatit#anorexiafight#fuckana
12058 minutes ago
It's up on my YouTube channel, link in bio 🎥 What I Eat in a Day #1 🥞💪🌱 Thank for all the continued support, it's needed now more than ever! 😞 This video really opened my eyes ❤️ time to make a change and start a new chapter 📖
Activism of any kind can feel like you're one voice shouting in the middle of Times Square, desperately hoping someone not only hears, but actually listens. Well, @hellmannsmayonnaise heard and listened to me recently and I feel like I must give them credit for being not only receptive, but for taking immediate action and changing how they worded the recipe they recently posted for fried deviled eggs.
Originally the post described the eggs in a way that moralized food. I'm really, really struggling right now with my eating disorder behaviors. I know I'm not at all alone in this. So, I decided to speak up. I honestly expected no response at all... Let alone action.
So, those of you fighting against toxic diet culture, just know... Sometimes your voice is heard. And it's always needed!
Thank you, Hellman's, for handling this with grace and kindness.
Hey guys, wanted to take a sec to introduce myself!!! I had an account awhile ago but I was pretty confident that I had recovered so I deleted it. Long story short, I’m back. It’s a good and bad thing, but I’m excited to be back in the recovery community because it was so supportive. My name is hana and I’m 18 and I’ve been struggling w bulimia on and off for the past few years. Don’t be scared to say hi!!
Easter is a time for family, friends, love, laughter, chocolate & hot cross buns. 🍫🐣 But it can also be an incredibly difficult holiday for someone who suffers with an eating disorder. Instead of being about all those amazing things it is taken over by anxiety, fear & an overwhelming amount of ed thoughts. So for those suffering know that it’s okay not to reach unrealistic expectations on this day. Instead be kind to yourself & celebrate the “small” wins. Whether that be eating an egg, going to a social event, saying yes to a hot cross bun or simply just being present around your loved ones. And remember Easter won’t feel like this forever because you are working towards a lifetime of freedom. 🦋
6341 hour ago
The first thing we say to someone who has lost weight might not be the best thing to say. Here are some helpful alternatives
Not pro-ana, not pro eating disorder, please seek help even if you think you may have some disordered eating habits cause there's scientific evidence that the earlier the treatment the higher likelihood of full recovery.
Also please don't worry about my eating it's totally fine this is just a meme!
Admittedly, seeking help for anything can be scary. Because the unknown is exactly as it’s stated. Unknown. But it also was, for me, the best choice ever. It doesn’t mean I don’t have bad days. It means I’m now committed to the journey. Recognising when I do relapse and getting back on that horse. For me, eating out of “meal time” is really hard. Having a snack makes me feel guilty. But each day I try. Over time I hope to live a life where food is no longer an anxiety. But something to share moments over and enjoy. If you are struggling out there. Stay strong 💕 Seek help and fight those demons. Curries are pretty yum so here’s one for your morning feed!
2952 hours ago
I remember the exact moment I thought of my business name. I was in a float tank (magnesium salt tank). I was taking some much needed me time after Asher was born and had come to switch my mind off. What happened instead, and I was later told it was a common side effect of being in such a sensory deprived state, is that my creativity soared through the roof! I was up and out of that tank after 30 mins, madly making notes of the things that had popped into my mind.
Nutrire was one of these lightbulbs 💡The aim of my practice was to nourish people - mind, body and soul. The term nourishment was fitting as I am deeply passionate about teaching people who are deprived of nourishment after suffering eating disorders, how to provide nourishment to themselves and steer away from the concept of calories towards the concept of becoming focused in energy, sustainability and of course... nourishment. This also means leaning to nourishing thoughts and practices and away from punishment of the self.
Being passionate about the Spanish language and Latin roots of words, this form of the word seemed fitting.
I get asked a lot how to pronounce it. I remember hearing once that if you’re asked that question then you should rename your business or product. But this name is so deeply entwined with my soul that I can’t part with it. So instead, I open your mind to the definition. 💕
CW: eating disorders
I got to go home this weekend! I’ve been super homesick lately so this mini break has been amazing. It’s exactly the push I needed to get my through finals!
For the first time I opened up about my eating disorder with my mom. She handled it super well and was super supportive. We agreed that it would be best if I went back to therapy over the summer and we are going to research potential outpatient programs for this summer. I still have to talk about it with my dad but my mom said she’d be there to do it with me. I am super proud of myself for being honest about my struggles instead of bottling them up!
Tomorrow I’m going to be going back to school. I’m going to be on a bus for eight hours by myself which is really scary but it’s going to be fun! I’m ready to challenge myself and push through to the end of semester, three weeks left!
I hope you all have a good day ♥️
1802 hours ago
heyooo friends & happy saturday!
i took the entire day off of all studying & schoolwork to spend some time with my siblings and their friends (and my momma). we all took a trip to target and i got an easter dress for church tomorrow morning🐥🌷 so excited for this week- my family is on spring break so we’ll be taking a beach trip, seeing lots of extended family, shopping, and im begging to go to the zoo one day lol. thanks to my super flexible college schedule im able to enjoy these fun times with them. just gotta tag along with all of my study guides and worksheets for finals😂 tomorrow we’re going to church & spending time with my dad’s side of the family in the afternoon. BUT IN THE MORNING WE ALWAYS WAKE UP TO EASTER BASKETS!!🐰💕 hope you’re all having a wonderful weekend. what are your easter plans? & what’s your fav easter candy?😏 bumpy nerd jelly bean eggs and robin eggs are my jam. i also love dark choc peepsters (hate peeps tho- and anything marshmallow) but they don’t sell them in grocery stores anymore.😭😭
7632 hours ago
Guten Abend ihr Lieben! 🧸💘
Ich bin gestern nach einem relativ entspannten Arbeitstag mit den Kids im Zoo zuhause bei meiner Familie angekommen! 😇
Heute war dann erstmal ein bisschen Haushalt (Wäsche waschen, putzen, einkaufen,...) dran, bevor ich nachmittags zwei Kuchen für meinen Bruder gebacken habe 🍰
Der hat nämlich dieses Jahr ausgerechnet am Ostermontag Geburtstag 🤣 Deshalb bekommen wir morgen vormittag zum Oster-/Geburtstags-Brunch Besuch von meinem Onkel und meiner Tante mit ihren beiden Kindern und meinen Großeltern. Nachmittags dann Kaffeetrinken und abends wird gegrillt! 🙌🏼
Heidewitzka, ich muss sagen ich bin schon ein bisschen „angespannt“, aber in erster Linie hab ich Lust auf den Tag morgen 🙈 Es wird schönes Wetter, ich bin von meinen liebsten Menschen umgeben, es gibt gutes Essen... Das sollte ich genießen! Genauso wie ihr! 🥰
Ganz ehrlich, die letzten Jahre war Ostern zwar auch ganz schön, aber das blöde Kalorienzählen hat mich ständig begleitet und darauf habe ich dieses Jahr keine Lust mehr!!! Auch wenn es vielleicht nochmal eine Herausforderung wird, möchte ich morgen auf meinen Bauch hören und mich lieber an Gesprächen beteiligen und auf die wichtige Dinge achten, anstatt mich innerlich nur mit Kalorien zu beschäftigen und zu zählen, ob ich mir das zweite Stück Kuchen noch leisten kann 🤦🏼♀️
Ich hoffe, ich kriege das alles so hin, wie ich es geplant habe und wie ich es auch mit der Ernährungsberaterin abgesprochen habe!
Jetzt gehe ich aber auch erstmal schlafen, damit ich morgen früh fit in den Tag starte 😁
Frohe Ostern und einen schönen Sonntag wünsche ich euch! 😘
Ach ja, ganz vergessen: Auf dem Foto sehr ihr ein Abendessen aus der letzten Woche. Aufbacklaugenstange mit Butter, Orangen-Hummus und Gemüse 😋 #recovery#edrecovery#anarecovery#staystrong#food#foodie#foodblogger#dinner#foodlover#bread#pretzel#veggie#eatyourveggies#balanced#meal#healthy#recoveryishard#gainingweightiscool#gainingweight#gainz#recoveryispossible#recoveryisworthit#ed#ana#anorexia#eatingdisorder#yummy#delicious#foodislife
2312 hours ago
I keep fighting... 🕊
Hello my loves and happy Saturday! 💖
I’m literally writing this at midnight, omg. It’s almost 1 AM.... just woke up and realised I didn’t posted, so let’s go 🐒
(Fell asleep while this was posting...) Here’s what I ate today :
Breakfast was some apple/raisin oatmeal topped with more apple, frozen raspberries, dark chocolate, almonds, walnuts & coconut 🌴
Then for a little snack while cooking, I had some yogurt, grapes (more than shown) & honeydew ✨
For lunch I made a pasta salad with lettuce, spinach, pasta (duuh), herbs + garlic powder, red pepper, cucumber, a homemade “frikadelle”, an egg, dressing & sunflower seeds 🥗
Dinner was 3 slices of bread with different toppings 🍞
Lastly as my dessert I had some vanilla ice cream topped with granola, grapes, frozen raspberries & chocolate sauce (fear food!!) 🍨
It was seriously SO good.
Oh well, today was an okay day 🌿
Woke up at 07:45 AM because I needed some groceries for my breakfast, so therefore I had to get earlier up and walk to the supermarket 🛒
After that I got home, had breakfast, got ready and went for work 💪🏼 The weather is currently so great here in Denmark, but I have to wear warm clothes because I’m sick.... I’m literally about to pass out 😂☀️ Some hours later I returned home 🏡 and just relaxed.. Then I later on had lunch 🍴
And then I just kinda watched too much YouTube, and just chilled 💤
I really wants to have a rest day soon, but I don’t know if it should be tomorrow (which actually is today now, lol) or Monday? I’m home both days so.. what do you think? 🙈
These days I’m almost thinking a lot on my current stage and if I should/needs to gain more weight. No lie, I’m just working on get my period back, but nothing seems to work... and it frustrates me!! It’s almost 2 YEARS ago I had my period, and I miss it. Miss feeling like a real girl..😔 Anyways, I will go to sleep again! Hope everyone had a wonderful Saturday 🌺
(tw??) this evening was a desaster and I can't put into words how much I hate myself and how disgusted I am by myself. about 60g of chocolate and a 3/4 package of dates. BUT my father is a blessing. without him idk how I would've coped and what I would've/should've done. and despite encouraging me to eat more he actually stopped me from eating more this evening bc he realized that I'm going from one extreme to the other and I'm so thankful that he was there at the right time. I cried in his arms for the first time in forever bc I felt so disgusted and lost. we went for a walk and talking about everything and nothing and knowing I'm not alone did me good but at home I knew I couldn't just eat normally tmrw and craved savoury foods so instead of not eating at all tmrw I decided to still have a snack and then let my body rest again tmrw and start over on monday. dad was not happy about that idea and we kinda argued about that but I already set my mind to it and I already ate like 700 cals more than planned bc of the chocolate and dates so why not throw in some more, basically eat for 2 days today and let my body rest and digest tmrw. obvs dad has a different opinion but he can't force me to eat or not eat at this or that time so I did it anyway. wow this evening was so intense and unplanned but at least I wasn't alone w my thoughts and emotions
812 hours ago
So, todays food was a bit of a struggle but we managed it 👌 I forgot to take a photo but I finished the day with tea and 2 biscuits too.. Today has been a day of entirely mixed emotions and honestly, I feel exhausted from it all. My head is an absolute mess and I feel beyond isolated.
Hit with so many realisations today and I've never been more determined to grab my life back. I am petrified but I cant live like this anymore.
I miss my life, I miss being me. I cant wait to love myself unconditionally and finally realise that yes, my life is worth the fight.
🍪Galletas integrales de castañas
🐟Ceviche de pescado
🍞Pan casero artesanal (sin miga)
🥖Pan casero con frejol colado
🥐Empanada de pollo
🍰Keke de higo (demasiado)
Agh....Me enfrente a grandes miedos y me sentía re valiente pero en la noche me di un atracón :"v, sin embargo ya hablé con mis padres y me siento mejor!.Ya sé cuál fue mi principal error, en el almuerzo, debido a que andaba con miedo (por el tener que enfrentarme a comer comida cocinada por otras personas) comí poco :"c, deje cebolla, choclo, y además, compartí con mi madre D":, no estaba para nada llena y por eso al comer lo dulce, quise comer y seguir comiendo y termino en un atracón <\3, pero ya que.... Ya pasó, ahora solo me queda aprender y no volver a repetirlo
MY DAY:🌦️ #recoverywin#diariodecomidas#anorexia#recoveryanorexia#eatingdisorderrecovery#eatforlife#eatingdisorder#recipeshealthy#foodstagram#foodhealthy
🍰Keke de higo
🍳Tortilla de verduras y pollo
🍪Galletas integrales de castañas
🐟Sudado de atún
🥒Ensalada de pepino
🍰Keke de higo
Day 17 of not counting calories and mum deciding what I eat! Had such a busy day today! Haven’t had much in terms of snacks because I’ve been out shopping this afternoon with my mum and sister and then I MADE some CREME EGG MINI CHEESECAKES for Easter!! AND I TRIED ONE! ☺️❤️🎉
Breakfast = Oats, Smoothie & Actimel!
Lunch = 1 Caramel & Chocolate Hot Cross Hun & 1 slice of Hot Cross Bun Loaf with mini pretzels!
Dinner = Chicken Arrabbiata!
Dessert = Yoghurt & A MINI CHEESECAKE I MADE!
Other Snacks = None