I am so exhausted ! I’ve been non stop on the go the last couple of days, my house is a mess and I still have lots to get finished in the decorating department on the plus side the toilet and bathroom are finished as is the upstairs landing, the hallway floor is nearly laid just one last bit by the stair to do and the it all needs sealing can’t wait for it all to be finished ! I’m taking the rest of the day off after I’ve tried to tidy up the best I can. Then making cakes with the youngest and hopefully find some time to finish of Alfie’s portrait. #exhausted#mentalhealthawareness#eupd#eupdrecovery#recovery#selfcare#diy#makingourhouseahome 🏡❤️
The amount of fog I feel right now is insane! I have zero motivation, can barely keep my eyes open. At the same time I have the most insane anger!!! Shouting at everything that goes wrong no matter how small. Fighting with inanimate objects is no fun.
My son has a play date so I am forced to socialise 😡🤬 Even writing this is making me fucking fuming because auto correct thinks it knows it all!
Let’s all just take a minute to appreciate how fucking trim I look from the back! 😍 This took only 6 weeks and I’ve got to say I’m pretty chuffed with the result.
Today is the last day of #lent and it’s been the best journey physically and mentally. I’ve had good and bad times along the way but really I have loved every second. It has taught me strength, strong will, self motivation and self control. I’ve gone from eating 5 kitkats in one 5 minute sitting to eating no sweet treats for 44 days (6 weeks and 2 days). I’m a bit sad that this part of my journey is over. Therefore I have set a new goal but this time I will be sharing it after I have achieved it! I genuinely thought my weight loss was a lie and could not see where it had gone from and that my scales were deceiving me - Turns out those 6lbs were on my back mostly and damn I feel good about it now. I took this photo because of my new #COYS tee, little did I know how fucking happy I’d be seeing my figure results! 👊🏻💁🏻♀️ #ivegotthis#transformation#mentalhealthawareness#buildingabetterme#figurelookinggood#results#bpd#eupd#myjourney#healthybodyhealthymind#gettingmybikinibody#happy
623 hours ago
Sorry that i haven't really posted much.Ive been really busy.
If only this bullshit wasn't true! 😂
What other unsolicited advice do you get?
My biggest annoyance is when I am told to "just practice mindfulness meditation", I'm like "bitch" 🤔"if I do that I disassociate, start having flash backs and it leads to psychosis, so.... no thanks, bye" 👋
Had the shittiest sleep and my head is banging but I wanted so bad to make a little update post on this as my motivation to keep in check with my feelings has been so slow, I didn't even want to come on this and have to admit them to myself 😖 I am exhausted. I have to see me psychiatrist in 2 hours and all night I had nightmares about being late and missing the appointment? I really want to go and find out that I am enrolled in the year of DBT because after trying a few other things I feel like I really need this level of intensive help. I am dreading them telling me it's going to be on midday and then I'll have to compensate somehow from work. And of course my family just think I'm irrational and immature, so there's no telling them about it and I'll have to figure out what to tell them about where I am. Time to pull myself together, I will update then but for now here's a beautiful picture of one of my favourite (and most frightening to walk by) places in Dublin - ringsend and the docks 🌸 #bpd#eupd#mentalhealth
405 hours ago
I'm feeling very much like Alice at the moment....💔💙 Not sure which way to go...I know the way I want to go....but I don't know how to get there is if I ever will so I need to find a new path....but which one do I take now I have a clean slate....🤔😞
I didn't get out of bed until almost 3pm today. Oops. Ended up going for a lovely walk with my roomie. My legs decided to quit on me when we were at the park, though, so we had to call for a ride home. It was still nice, though. I'm trying hard not let my #illness get me down.
Hope everyone is having a lovely day. 💖💖💖
So I saw a post that said make Britain British.
I started to ponder. What does that mean? How do we define what it means to be British?
The colour of our skin? The religion or faith we follow?
Wouldn't it be great if what defined us was what we gave back to the world. Would it be good if when people thought of British/ Britain they saw not a country they think they own but a collective of different people, different colours, different beliefs, different height, weight, eye colour, sexuality. Would it be good if people loved each other instead of spreading hate.
To me make Britain British is irrelevant. Let's make the world wholesome. Let's make it forecoming, accepting.