I'm going to be 26 soon and I'm scared out of my brains!! I practically wrote an essay in the notes app on my phone (where I catalogue most feelings) about all the things I still haven't gotten to experience or do or be.... I know it's really an antithesis of the season to feel this way but I can't help that my birthday is between Christmas and New Years!!!
Here's to whatever MAY or MAY NOT happen in my 26th year.... 😢😵😳😩🥶😬😦 #feelings ! #beanie#socks#thoughts
There are a lot of corners of the life we’ve built that connect really nicely. When I picture our interests and habits, the experiences we’ve had, and goals for the future, I imagine it like drawing with one of those compasses that moves with your pencil and makes spirals and lotus looking flower petals. Everything weaving together and finding its connection with the previous point or curve.
🌈 And since we are so… defined in our lifestyle, it would probably come as no surprise that we’re pretty conscious about carving out time for structured personal development. And while it is something that comes pretty natural to us NOW, it took some work to get there. Because it’s hard to start! Probably the hardest part, right? Doing something new, creating new habits and routines that weren’t the ones you were taught in school when your brain was still all soft and mushy. Taking on the personal responsibility to learn the things you want, rather than the things you’ve been prescribed as “needing.”
🌈 And I think that if I have a point to this whole rant, it’s that there is always support. Both of us have gotten very fortunate with the therapists we’ve had, the mentorship we’ve received, and our own resourcefulness to go out and find the things that support us. It's cool that now we get to do those things together, and for each other.
Seus olhos se fecharam, minhas mãos tocaram seu rosto, cabelo, desenharam teu maxilar, tocaram seus lábios, desceram por seu pescoço até chegar a sua cintura, eu desceria mais, mas hesitei. Você me abraçou e eu queria mais, queria tirar o lençol que cobria o resto do seu corpo, beijar toda parte visível sua, tirar minha roupa e ficar ali com você por horas, até que ambos não tivessem mais forças pra nada. Minha mente criou todas possibilidades, por um momento tudo aquilo aconteceu, acordei pela primeira vez querendo transar com alguém que estava ao meu lado, vontade de beijar, abraçar, acariciar, ser tocada, o calor do seu corpo, o contorno dos seus músculos, seus braços, seu pescoço, cada parte sua me chamava, cada parte sua eu desejava, mas fiquei quieta. Fechei minhas mãos, senti a força em meu pulso e me odiei por não ter coragem de fazer tudo que minha mente e corpo queriam ali, com você.
Honestly sometimes i feel like a clown for my #feelings towards yukilisa cause like with ayachisa and misakanon its like ‘i am so bored’ and nothing else but with yukilisa its like UGHHHHHHHH I REALLY DONT LIKE IT AT ALL but then i feel bad cause so many people, including my FRIENDS, are yukilisa stannies so i dont want to upset them by shitting all over their ship on main cause i know loads of people find lisa/yukilisa really important to them so thats why i will just forever drop subtle hints about my reasons behind my opinions rather than just saying it! Anyway gn! I put a calming video of jellyfish not because they remind me of kanon shes a bitch but because theyre cool
quick, cute, shit quality time lapse of batty bunniez I did!
These lil baddies were fun, a sweet treat for me 😈🦇♥
For those of you that prefer timelapse vids:
Bare with me, ya girl is always tryna figure out SOMETHING! im no where near techsavvy like you GENIUSES! If you have any tips help me tf out because IM STRUGGLING 😅
No matter what goes on in life remember to be the best you can be and beat negativity and life in the butt . Make yourself smile and laugh because trust me it's contagious others will laugh and smile with you. Most important remember you are unique there is one one of you , one beautiful personality , one beautiful smile, and one amazing talent you are worth everything life gives you to push you forward. Be a magical being and love yourself 🥀💞
Wow has it been quite the week!
Somethings that are honestly not discussed enough are burn out, stress, sleep deprivation and so many things along those lines! We all chalk it up as “the pre-med grind” and tell ourselves how one day it will save our patient’s life or how the work is worth it, and then we power through. Honestly sometimes it SUCKS and it’s okay to think that! No one has to enjoy this every second of everyday! It’s okay to want to quit and to feel frustrated and to be sad and everyone should live their feelings! You are going to have bad exams, classes, days, weeks, and sometimes even semesters and years. And this is ok. You’re a human being first and your feelings are valid. This is a tough road and pretending it’s easy and your happy all the time is going to make it a long journey. Let yourself feel your feelings and my DMs are always open❤️✨ #premed#medinsta#health#study#school#studying#realpremed#futuredoctor#finals#rain#rainy#exams#sad#burnout#grind#medblr#studymotivation#medicine#feelings#thoughts#mentalhealth#tagforlikes
2012 minutes ago
No te atreves a quedarte
Y no te atreves a irte
No te atreves a decirme
Que me harás de todo
Si quieres puedo decirte
Que siempre voy a portarme
No soy niña intento contarte
Y te quiero así de bobo
Y quieres marcharte, quieres,
Quieres quedarte, quieres,
Quieres amarme, puedes,
Solo dime si te arrepientes
"Even the seasons change
Our love still stays the same
You give me that
Spread my wings and make me fly
The taste of your honey is so sweet
When you give me the hummingbird heartbeat
💘Only you are my life among the dead 😘baby💕❤💖❤💖❤💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖
💘,💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘 Awe I'm too tired to stay awake but I'm still in class, Oksana wanted to work more today idk why 👀 maybe because we took a small break in the morning... I don't like these pics but I ran out of pics 😅 I made this minutes ago... My face is reflecting how tired I am, lmao I'm dying 😆 I have been falling asleep through the project 2, 😅 I told Oksana I needed a break but since Hollidays are coming she wants to work more today... And I'm not even having the strength to go on, I have been sleepless last night and I'm falling asleep in class now 😅... Well baby, good night and sweet dreams for you ❤🙈💕😚💖😘💕❤💕💖💕😜💕I love being yours baby, you're so beautiful, I want you baby, I hope you like this Katy pretty song I am posting for you here, you're so perfect babe, I'm proud of being yours 👏😍¥💍😜💕😻💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖
💫Update💫: 5:29 pm, I'm finally taking a break, Oksana said we can work one hour tomorrow instead, to see what we learnt, I'm so tired x.x I ran out of chocolates ;( I need some... I'm tired and chocolate is yummy and gives me energy lol 😅 ok well that's everything, I will have a standup meeting in 30 mins 👀😅at least this makes me wake up everyday and learn and mm organize my time better I guess 😝😆💕I love you so much baby 😚🙈💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕 #thoughts#feelings#fire#hot#photography#photograph#portrait#kawaii#brunette#beautiful#beauty#model#twinflame#cute#cutsie#pale#browneyes#brownhair#darkhair#amazing#kawaii#nomakeup#queer#alternativegirl#alternative#altgirl#cutegirl#beautifulsmile#foryou#y
Y a veces me duele la mente de tanto imaginar que volverás, dirás te extraño y anhelo escuchar tu te amo, dirás que nos hacemos falta, que nos convertíamos en una sola musa para inspirarnos, que nuestras almas estaban predestinadas a sentirse y volar cogidas de la mano pero, que la racionalidad de ser humanas ha destruido el verdadero amor animal que descubrimos y sentir pudimos, ese que tanto te asustó y de mí te alejó.
Recuerdo aquella lluvia en nuestros labios durante horas sin poderlos desinmantar, los suspiros que nos hacían levitar, pero sobre todo recuerdo aquella mirada, porque pequeña, la mirada puede responder hasta las cosas que aún no has llegado a preguntar.
No logro verte, no consigo olerte. ¿Andas ahí? El interior de mi hogar aún con fuerza sentirte puede.