I started in January 2015. Exhausted, trapped in my life, in my mid 30s, I looked at myself, is this the me I want forever? Is this who I am? The answer was NO. I wanted something more for myself, to be free of the trap I'd put myself in, of the wall I'd built around myself. I wanted a way out.
I'd been an emotional binge eater, controlled by food my entire life. Overweight shopping in plus size shops age 14, so unfit I couldn't be bothered to do anything, turning down all social events as I'd find nothing to wear or fear I'd not fit in. So I ate, I ate all my feelings.
In 2015 I decided this time I was doing it. Staying to group no matter what. I knew the slimming world plan worked and I knew it would let me eat. No starving or depriving. I also knew it would take time, patience and effort.
It was a bumpy up and down journey with many highs and lows, gains and losses. The lessons got learnt, I figured out my way. Slowly I lost my weight, improved my relationship with food and I learnt to run. Running became my thing. I used it to manage my stress and it replaced the need to emotionally overeat. It made me feel just so proud of myself too! I could run! Me! Pride was something I'd not felt in a long while.
Getting to target is part one. Once there, you just have to do it forever. Simple right? Nope, not simple, trust me!
Losing is hard, maintaining is hard too! The old habits never quite leave and are still there. Life throws curve balls at you, you steer your way through and learn to roll with the ups and downs, trusting that you can do it and you'll find your way. Motivation, commitment, determination are all very much fluid things, they change all the time!!! You learn how to change and adapt as they do.
Its soon my 3rd year at target, 3 years maintaining a 5st weight loss. I've never managed more than a few months before! The last year I've had personal wobbles to get through. I'm proudest that throughout them all I've kept at it, kept going and have found new ways to change and adapt. The bumps always continue each one makes you learn.
I trust that this is me forever now. No going back, definitely more lessons to learn, but no going back. Not ever.
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What you have, many can have. But what you are, no one can be. Being yourself means living life how you want to live it, regardless of other people’s opinions. Empower yourself with your choices. 👊🏻
Over the past few months, I have invested greatly, both time and money, to learn things that I felt would contribute to a better life such as nutrition, fitness, self-improvement, nature therapy and more. Turning down a social obligation in favor of a healthy meal and a good workout means taking time to find your own center point to get healthy and grounded. I become in a much better position to serve those around me in a sustainable way when I’ve taken care of myself first.
Guten Abend Freunde 🖖🏼
Heute morgen war ich wieder im @classicbarbellclub_est2017 um mein Training durch zu ziehen. So eine geile Atmosphäre! Jeder einzelne in diesem Club gibt 100% in seinem Training und so muss das sein. ALLES oder NICHTS! Halbe Sachen gibt es nicht 💪🏼
Wir werden ab sofort mindestens 1x im Monat hier sein!
Habt alle noch schöne Ostern und genießt die Zeit mit der Familie ❤️
🌼🐣Happy Easter Everyone! 🐣🌼 Did a workout in the garden this morning to burn off that food baby I produced last night 😂🤰🏼
Feeling nice and flat again now! Mad how different your body changes in 12hrs!
First BBQ of the year today 🙌🏼 getting the most out of this glorious weather as I can! @addie_the_cat52 decided to sit and watch 😅