"she’s the type of girl that doesn’t want someone to sit with her at 2am on a rooftop talking about the things that have left ghosts wandering inside her head. she’s the type of girl who wants someone who can sit with her anywhere at any hour of the day and remind her that life can make you want to live again."
2,339377 hours ago
I smiled through it, but truth was, I was soooo unhappy. I felt like a prisoner to my unhealthy habits, I had no energy, no desire to dress up and get pretty, I hated going shopping, and walking fast face would make me get out of breath. For a long time, I stopped wanting to take pictures because of how depressing it was to see the weight on my face! At one point I felt like that was just how my life was meant to be 🤷🏻♀️ I knew what I needed to do to make a difference, eat healthy + exercise! Duh it’s not rocket science! What was soooo hard for me was being able to stick to eating healthy and exercising when that was the LAST thing I wanted to do! I was that girl that like about 2/3 veggies, LOATHEDDDDDDD reheated food, and adoresssssss hot and ready food that I don’t have to cook or clean 🙃 so making that change was HARD! But you know what was HARDER!? Waking up everyday hating the person looking back at me in the mirror. Having an entire nights sleep but feeling like I didn’t sleep at all. Not being able to keep up with my toddler. Having high blood pressure. Being prediabetic. Being addicted to fast foods. Having headaches or migraines on a weekly basis. Getting killer back pains, etc!! There is SOOOOO much that has improved in my life since I’ve started treating it with more love and I can’t help but share it because I hope, I pray!!! that it can light the fire inside someone else who needs it because I KNOWWWW how hard it is to feel stuck, to feel like you have no control at all! I’m here to tell you that you DO!!! It’s just about having the strength to fight a little harder for it! It’s beyond worth it!! •