These socks are my favourite at the moment. My lovely cousin @claireemal got them for me for my birthday, and I wear them all the time. But they’re feeling very true these last few days, I just feel so LAZY!
I know there’s good reason for it, but I just feel really unproductive and a little lost to be honest with you. I think I need to have a moment to pull back, and count the blessing in my life. As many of you know, Josh and I are on our journey of trying to start our family. I’ve always just been worried about when I fall pregnant, and how much anxiety I’m going to have about miscarrying again and then all of the other worries you have when becoming a mother
But it’s been a few months now, and I’m not pregnant. And there’s a big part of me that is SO aware it can take people a long time to fall pregnant, but I guess I just didn’t ever put much thought into that. And so now, with every negative test I’ve been getting. I’m feeling a little less hopeful and am becoming obsessive about it all.
I’m not going to lie. I really thought I was pregnant this cycle. I was really hopeful. But waking up every morning, taking a test with my fiancé. Pulling out the camera to get our reactions and seeing negative after negative. Is so sad. I think I need to learn to stop testing so often. Because it’s really been bringing me and Josh down
I know everything happens for a reason. I’m trying really hard to not let these negative thoughts consume my life. But it is really hard.
I’m get to lazy for this 😂
Editing ,posting, and adding hashtags ... the head shape didn’t even turn out ok so only going to show you the good part the eyes 👀
I’ll make you the days that I missed later maybe.....
i’ll be honest: i ditched wearing makeup to work almost a year ago. i probably don’t look as put together as the other people in my office, but whatever. makeup has always been my favorite, but it started to become a chore. i felt like i was a slave to waking up hours early (no matter how much i had gotten my go to routine down!) & the creativity & fun i once had with it was nonexistent. it also bothered me that people expected me to look a certain way, & would say the classic “are you okay?” line when i wasn’t wearing as much makeup as i usually did or none at all. but one day, i wasn’t okay! i was having a super hard time at work & having family issues & i came to work with NOTHING on my face (this was pre lashes extensions also!). & you know what? i felt better. i allowed myself to be upset & be comfortable while being upset. & now i only wear makeup on the weekends or if i have an event after work. it’s very freeing & also— saves me a lot of money! a foundation lasts me a looongg time now instead of buying every month. so my question: do you wash the day off every night or are you someone who falls asleep with a full face (or none at all!)? i am sometimes lazy, but trying to remember that a clean face equals a clean sleeping space, & a morning with (hopefully) no surprise breakouts. #acne#skincare#face#facemasks#makeup#routine#skincareroutine#wakeupandmakeup#sephora#ulta#lazy#anotherdayanothermask#washyourface#washyourlashes#freedom#bareface#love#judgefree#acnejourney#skincarejourney background from @ultabeauty!
Hubby's night. ➡️ My night.
It's cool. He is in Indiana at a "work conference" 😉... on the field where The Indianapolis Colts play. I had Chick-fil-A for dinner sooo I'm clearly winning. 🤣
The kiddo is in bed so it's just me and Stella on the couch relaxing, yep, CLEARLY winning. 🤗
Just another more extremely old animation that I only just decided to post. Nothing special lately I haven’t felt so motivated to do anything all I’ve worn is tons of random ripped skinny jeans and camouflage jeans oho blending in. N’ whatever is a nice fit. But I’m just feeling a bit useless lately. Not to say I’m underrated or under appreciated, not at all. I just feel alone, somehow? But why? I just don’t know why I never can bring myself to be happy. But I’m trying, always for you.❤️🥺 I’m trying my best to make you happy, as long as I can hear or imagine your smile and laugh everything is worth it.