I’ve been a little MIA this week due to the flu. While the illness aspect has 100% sucked (😭), and I’m still recovering there have been quite a few sweet moments that I’ll actually probably cherish forever. There’s just something about a bed full of babies isn’t there? And of course wherever Mama goes, there go the children.
#mylifeinadecade 2011 is when all hell broke loose. I’m 15, turning 16 in June. I’m hormonal, I’m angsty, and I’m desperate to be liked. Soon every guy in my grade finds out I haven’t yet had my first kiss (not a big deal), and a few of them are vying to be it. I join the rowing team, having had no previous athletic direction in high school so far. Added bonus: a guy I have a crush on, H, is on the men’s team and we all train together. The girls on the team find out I like H, and all accuse me of “only joining for him.” They decide they hate me because of that and I have no friends on the team, except for one boy, F, who has ulterior motives: he likes me. After months of wearing me down and insisting I give a “nice guy” like him a chance, my first kiss is with him and we date for a month. I didn’t truly like or love F, but he wouldn’t take no for an answer, and I felt so alone and confused that at some point I just gave in. In June I smoked weed for the very first time. In retrospect it’s not a big deal, but given my extremely strict Christian upbringing, I felt like the worst sinner in the world. You know how they talk about the “loss of innocence” transition from childhood to adolescence? That was 2011 for me. Summer comes and goes, and before I know it I’m back in school. Junior year. Things are improving, I’m making more friends, and I get asked to homecoming by 5 different guys. This time allowed to go, but sans date. I’m still on the rowing team, and while I still have mostly no friends on the team, I have been able to make friends with some of the girls from two years below. I’m enjoying the challenge and hard work of the sport, giving me something to focus on. I have two best friends and my heart is feeling more and more full. But everything is about to change...
1. Before the Homecoming dance, October
2. At a regatta with some of my teammates, October
3. My outfit for 80’s day during “Spirit Week,” October. You can’t tell in the pic, but my leggings are made of sequins, and I still have them now!
4. My friend @maddieljh in Mr. Damron’s science class, February
🦋 Sesión fotográfica para @noeexpced 🦋 ha sido un placer trabajar con esta pedazo de modelo. Me quedo súper contento con los resultados y también por haber ganado una pedazo de amistad cómo la tuya, gracias por todo 🖤