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Eye makeup: @colourpopcosmetics (code 5GEM)
  • Pastel eyeshadows are kinda trendy so I tried it out myself. 🌈 ⁣

    Eye makeup: @colourpopcosmetics (code 5GEM)
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  • I got totally inspired by the show @glammasters last night. My first drip try..at least I caught it mid drop lol😂 
Definitely need to practice more but it sure is fun.
  • I got totally inspired by the show @glammasters last night. My first drip try..at least I caught it mid drop lol😂
    Definitely need to practice more but it sure is fun.
  • 0 1 21 January, 2020
  • Having someone request to draw me and continue to want to draw photos of me is the most amazing thing! Go give @doodle.orgasms a follow and send all your photos to them so you can get a drawing like this one!
  • Having someone request to draw me and continue to want to draw photos of me is the most amazing thing! Go give @doodle.orgasms a follow and send all your photos to them so you can get a drawing like this one!
  • 9 1 20 January, 2020
  • In 2 months I start my next chapter and I could not be more excited 💞
  • In 2 months I start my next chapter and I could not be more excited 💞
  • 43 2 16 January, 2020
  • About a week ago I was told that we will be going back to Kauai to honor my Tutu (grandma). I immediately thought “oh no that only gives me 6 months or so to loose 50lbs!”, so when people ask if I still struggle with diet culture the answer is yes. Although I’m able to talk myself out of it these thoughts still cross my mind weekly. Why on earth would I need to drop weight because I’m going to Hawaii to HONOR MY GRANDMA?! She would never have wanted me to go through the pain of relapse just to “look good on the beach”. I remember constantly thinking, last year in Hawaii, that I looked amazing in my swimsuit, I loved being on the beach, and loved being in the water. Instead of setting a goal of shedding weight I have set a better goal! In 6 months I will be strong enough to hike the Napali coast, swim in the ocean, and run on the beach!
  • About a week ago I was told that we will be going back to Kauai to honor my Tutu (grandma). I immediately thought “oh no that only gives me 6 months or so to loose 50lbs!”, so when people ask if I still struggle with diet culture the answer is yes. Although I’m able to talk myself out of it these thoughts still cross my mind weekly. Why on earth would I need to drop weight because I’m going to Hawaii to HONOR MY GRANDMA?! She would never have wanted me to go through the pain of relapse just to “look good on the beach”. I remember constantly thinking, last year in Hawaii, that I looked amazing in my swimsuit, I loved being on the beach, and loved being in the water. Instead of setting a goal of shedding weight I have set a better goal! In 6 months I will be strong enough to hike the Napali coast, swim in the ocean, and run on the beach!
  • 60 4 15 January, 2020
  • Trigger warning: Eating Disorders 
Everyone has a different story! 
My story began at the age of 12 when I started my first real diet and began a workout regimen that my growing body was not ready for. Middle school is hard for everyone, adding this obsession made it even harder. 
Age 14 came along and I was obsessing over my body, I would do anything to be able to see my hip bones and ribs. I found the perfect way to lay by the pool to make me look skinnier. With this weight loss I was validated by peers but my 2 best friends never commented on my weight, they took me out to eat, and they made me spend time with them. I don’t think they (@cummings_kayla & @rachelbball34 ) knew I was suffering to this extent but I’m sure they realized something was off. That summer I moved away from these 2 wonderful ladies and fell so hard into a eating disorder spiral. 
Freshman year I met another group of wonderful ladies (@madelinecadence & @fiona.elisabeth & @sheisbeautysheisgrac ). These ladies were constantly loving me, supporting me, and teaching me that I am okay, my body is worthy. This is when I started recovery. I constantly told myself that I am loved and I am enough. I met @maxrathburn my junior year who has given me endless love and support during this journey. Though this disordered eating did not end in high school. 
Freshman year of college I found myself obsessing over clean eating which turned into bing eating. I had no idea that these 2 things were classified as eating disorders but with the support of my loved ones and my own strength I overcame these eating disorders as well and by the end of my freshman year I took interest in helping others recover. 
Today I am proud to announce that I am officially 7 years recovered from anorexia and bulimia, 6 years recovered from obsessive exercise, and 3 years recovered from orthorexia and binge eating disorder. 
I am also excited to announce that I have been accepted to become a National Eating Disorders Association helpline click to chat volunteer! I am beyond happy to turn this journey into something positive and hopefully help others recover from this terrible disease.
  • Trigger warning: Eating Disorders
    Everyone has a different story!
    My story began at the age of 12 when I started my first real diet and began a workout regimen that my growing body was not ready for. Middle school is hard for everyone, adding this obsession made it even harder.
    Age 14 came along and I was obsessing over my body, I would do anything to be able to see my hip bones and ribs. I found the perfect way to lay by the pool to make me look skinnier. With this weight loss I was validated by peers but my 2 best friends never commented on my weight, they took me out to eat, and they made me spend time with them. I don’t think they (@cummings_kayla & @rachelbball34 ) knew I was suffering to this extent but I’m sure they realized something was off. That summer I moved away from these 2 wonderful ladies and fell so hard into a eating disorder spiral.
    Freshman year I met another group of wonderful ladies (@madelinecadence & @fiona.elisabeth & @sheisbeautysheisgrac ). These ladies were constantly loving me, supporting me, and teaching me that I am okay, my body is worthy. This is when I started recovery. I constantly told myself that I am loved and I am enough. I met @maxrathburn my junior year who has given me endless love and support during this journey. Though this disordered eating did not end in high school.
    Freshman year of college I found myself obsessing over clean eating which turned into bing eating. I had no idea that these 2 things were classified as eating disorders but with the support of my loved ones and my own strength I overcame these eating disorders as well and by the end of my freshman year I took interest in helping others recover.
    Today I am proud to announce that I am officially 7 years recovered from anorexia and bulimia, 6 years recovered from obsessive exercise, and 3 years recovered from orthorexia and binge eating disorder.
    I am also excited to announce that I have been accepted to become a National Eating Disorders Association helpline click to chat volunteer! I am beyond happy to turn this journey into something positive and hopefully help others recover from this terrible disease.
  • 42 1 8 January, 2020
  • Feeling happy because 2019 is almost over. 2019 was the worst year of my life and I know many others had a terrible year as well. 2020 is full of exciting new adventures and I could not be more excited! Stay strong and happy through the rest of 2019, next year will be better 💞
  • Feeling happy because 2019 is almost over. 2019 was the worst year of my life and I know many others had a terrible year as well. 2020 is full of exciting new adventures and I could not be more excited! Stay strong and happy through the rest of 2019, next year will be better 💞
  • 39 1 28 December, 2019
  • I have come to realize that no matter how much I shelter myself from toxic diet culture I will always come across something that is triggering. I was watching youtube this morning and someone said “I will need to run 5 miles to work off this drink”, and although these people mean no harm it does cause harm to many. Recovering from diet culture is hard, the first step is to look in the mirror and everything you used to see as ugly...find the beauty. I look at my new stretch marks and thank them for giving me the ability to grow.

Should I give more self love tips? 
Bracelet: @lumanessjewelryco 
Sweater: @aerie 
Hair products (because everyone is asking):
Shampoo/conditioner: @acurebeauty 
Curly smoothie: @sheamoisture
  • I have come to realize that no matter how much I shelter myself from toxic diet culture I will always come across something that is triggering. I was watching youtube this morning and someone said “I will need to run 5 miles to work off this drink”, and although these people mean no harm it does cause harm to many. Recovering from diet culture is hard, the first step is to look in the mirror and everything you used to see as ugly...find the beauty. I look at my new stretch marks and thank them for giving me the ability to grow.

    Should I give more self love tips?
    Bracelet: @lumanessjewelryco
    Sweater: @aerie
    Hair products (because everyone is asking):
    Shampoo/conditioner: @acurebeauty
    Curly smoothie: @sheamoisture
  • 45 3 16 December, 2019
  • The 10 year challenge means more to me than embarrassing photos of when I was 12, it marks the start of my eating disorder. On my 12th birthday was the first time I sat in a fitting room crying, I started my first real diet, I took up exercise, and I found myself hating every little inch of my body. I have come a very long way in 10 years, I have grown to love myself and recover from anorexia and bulimia, I have learned from my 12 year old self but I still wish I could go back and tell that little 12 year old girl in the pizza restaurant, not eating, that it is okay to cry, show your feelings, and eat.
  • The 10 year challenge means more to me than embarrassing photos of when I was 12, it marks the start of my eating disorder. On my 12th birthday was the first time I sat in a fitting room crying, I started my first real diet, I took up exercise, and I found myself hating every little inch of my body. I have come a very long way in 10 years, I have grown to love myself and recover from anorexia and bulimia, I have learned from my 12 year old self but I still wish I could go back and tell that little 12 year old girl in the pizza restaurant, not eating, that it is okay to cry, show your feelings, and eat.
  • 46 3 25 November, 2019
  • The word “body positive” and the body positive movement came in many waves, the first which started in 1850-1890 which included the Victorian dress reform, putting an end to corset use for body modification purposes. The second wave started in 1967 when radio show host, Steve Post created an event called the “fat-in” changing the meaning of the word fat to a term for what every body has, without fat we would not survive. The third wave came in the 1990s with the rise of eating disorders, this wave made individuals of any size comfortable to work out by giving them a safe space, free of judgement. The fourth wave of the 2000s, with the rise of social media individuals like Tess Holliday rose to popularity being one of the icons to start this modern movement, she was the first over size 20 model to enter Milk model Management and have been braking barrier since! 
This movement is seen to many as a way to boost someone’s social media platform but for others it ties back to fat acceptance, making fat a word that does not describe you but something you need to live. Although I acknowledge the fact that I do not have a hard time finding clothes that fit, most of the time. I am judged by some because of my weight but not all. I acknowledge that I have some thin privilege, although I have seen as I have gained weight that I am treated differently by some. I think body positivity now is the acknowledgment of others who are treated differently because of the way they look, I think it is showing that every body is a good body.
  • The word “body positive” and the body positive movement came in many waves, the first which started in 1850-1890 which included the Victorian dress reform, putting an end to corset use for body modification purposes. The second wave started in 1967 when radio show host, Steve Post created an event called the “fat-in” changing the meaning of the word fat to a term for what every body has, without fat we would not survive. The third wave came in the 1990s with the rise of eating disorders, this wave made individuals of any size comfortable to work out by giving them a safe space, free of judgement. The fourth wave of the 2000s, with the rise of social media individuals like Tess Holliday rose to popularity being one of the icons to start this modern movement, she was the first over size 20 model to enter Milk model Management and have been braking barrier since!
    This movement is seen to many as a way to boost someone’s social media platform but for others it ties back to fat acceptance, making fat a word that does not describe you but something you need to live. Although I acknowledge the fact that I do not have a hard time finding clothes that fit, most of the time. I am judged by some because of my weight but not all. I acknowledge that I have some thin privilege, although I have seen as I have gained weight that I am treated differently by some. I think body positivity now is the acknowledgment of others who are treated differently because of the way they look, I think it is showing that every body is a good body.
  • 30 1 16 November, 2019
  • Let’s talk about birth control! At the age of 14 I started on birth control pills. I remember going into the drug store and picking up my pills and thinking everyone was wondering if I was sexually active (this was because I was giving into societies ideas around sex being a sin, but that’s for a different post). I was so scared to go on the pill because I was never sure what people would think of me. I took these pills because my periods were beyond painful, taking me out of any activities for a whole week. When I got into college my pills stopped working so I decided to get an IUD, and no one told me how much my body would change and how much I would hate every little change that happened. Over these last few years I have worked on loving my body for being able to handle these crazy things I’m giving it, being to change and adapt to what I need it to do. I believe birth control is a necessity but I also think that people are never educated on the options and the side effects of each option. I am so lucky to have the choice between options and so lucky to have a doctor that is willing to answer my questions and take me off some birth controls without asking.
  • Let’s talk about birth control! At the age of 14 I started on birth control pills. I remember going into the drug store and picking up my pills and thinking everyone was wondering if I was sexually active (this was because I was giving into societies ideas around sex being a sin, but that’s for a different post). I was so scared to go on the pill because I was never sure what people would think of me. I took these pills because my periods were beyond painful, taking me out of any activities for a whole week. When I got into college my pills stopped working so I decided to get an IUD, and no one told me how much my body would change and how much I would hate every little change that happened. Over these last few years I have worked on loving my body for being able to handle these crazy things I’m giving it, being to change and adapt to what I need it to do. I believe birth control is a necessity but I also think that people are never educated on the options and the side effects of each option. I am so lucky to have the choice between options and so lucky to have a doctor that is willing to answer my questions and take me off some birth controls without asking.
  • 65 3 13 November, 2019
  • If you would have told 13 year old me that you would gain 50lbs, never straighten your hair, and wear makeup on special occasions ONLY I would have probably laughed in your face...then went home and cried. But I have come a long way from that girl who thought that the only way to be accepted was to fit into societies standards. I grew up watching princess diaries, as Mia (Anne Hathaway) moves from “ugly” to “pretty” she moved from frizzy curls to straight hair. I remember thinking from that moment on until I was 16 that I had to have straight hair to be beautiful, to be accepted. I painted on my makeup, straightened my hair, worked out for 1-2 hours then was off to school. This was everyday from the age of 12-15, this was normal for me. As I moved schools I found myself walking away from my past, things that kept me in this terrible mindset. I found friends who, little did they know, would save me from myself. I started to wear my hair natural and I remember the first day I did @madelinecadence told me how much she loved it, this was the first moment I felt accepted as myself. The next few years I found myself gaining weight but not noticing because I was happy and comfortable with myself. My final step was to stop wearing makeup for others and start wearing it for myself. The makeup concept was hard for me to grasp as I wondered why I would wear makeup if it wasn’t for other people. I decided to ditch makeup all together and found myself only wearing it when I felt like it, on my terms, for myself. This is still a learning progress and I am not at all healed from my past but I am learning how to love myself and every little thing that makes me unique.
  • If you would have told 13 year old me that you would gain 50lbs, never straighten your hair, and wear makeup on special occasions ONLY I would have probably laughed in your face...then went home and cried. But I have come a long way from that girl who thought that the only way to be accepted was to fit into societies standards. I grew up watching princess diaries, as Mia (Anne Hathaway) moves from “ugly” to “pretty” she moved from frizzy curls to straight hair. I remember thinking from that moment on until I was 16 that I had to have straight hair to be beautiful, to be accepted. I painted on my makeup, straightened my hair, worked out for 1-2 hours then was off to school. This was everyday from the age of 12-15, this was normal for me. As I moved schools I found myself walking away from my past, things that kept me in this terrible mindset. I found friends who, little did they know, would save me from myself. I started to wear my hair natural and I remember the first day I did @madelinecadence told me how much she loved it, this was the first moment I felt accepted as myself. The next few years I found myself gaining weight but not noticing because I was happy and comfortable with myself. My final step was to stop wearing makeup for others and start wearing it for myself. The makeup concept was hard for me to grasp as I wondered why I would wear makeup if it wasn’t for other people. I decided to ditch makeup all together and found myself only wearing it when I felt like it, on my terms, for myself. This is still a learning progress and I am not at all healed from my past but I am learning how to love myself and every little thing that makes me unique.
  • 57 15 23 October, 2019
  • Trigger warning: eating disorders 
Yesterday as I was scrolling through Instagram discover I stumbled across many “fitness motivation” pages as well as diet pages, this is what comes on my discover page when I start following body positive accounts, Instagram sees someone working out or eating nutrient rich foods and equates that to, “I’m now looking for diet inspiration”. I have gotten really good about ignoring these random posts but yesterday I saw one that made me self conscious and made me have a bad body image afternoon, the post was about intermediate fasting, tips and tricks. It read “fast night-1pm, if you get hungry it will pass, remember hunger is temporary”. This post came at me with a flood of emotions, old habits, and old thinking. The days where I would go to sleep so the hunger would pass. This is why Instagram needs to change, Instagram ban @thebirdspapaya ‘s hashtag #slowmobodyflow but it will not ban these potentially hurtful posts!
  • Trigger warning: eating disorders
    Yesterday as I was scrolling through Instagram discover I stumbled across many “fitness motivation” pages as well as diet pages, this is what comes on my discover page when I start following body positive accounts, Instagram sees someone working out or eating nutrient rich foods and equates that to, “I’m now looking for diet inspiration”. I have gotten really good about ignoring these random posts but yesterday I saw one that made me self conscious and made me have a bad body image afternoon, the post was about intermediate fasting, tips and tricks. It read “fast night-1pm, if you get hungry it will pass, remember hunger is temporary”. This post came at me with a flood of emotions, old habits, and old thinking. The days where I would go to sleep so the hunger would pass. This is why Instagram needs to change, Instagram ban @thebirdspapaya ‘s hashtag #slowmobodyflow but it will not ban these potentially hurtful posts!
  • 45 1 4 September, 2019
  • My body has changed a lot this past year, but it’s okay. This past year has been harder for me than I ever imagined life could be, not only has my body changed but my life has changed. These life changes made me forget about myself and worry more about others. With this tremendous grief that has hit me came changes in every aspect of myself but also came the realization that I am strong enough to keep going. My body is always worthy no matter what the scale says and what size clothes I’m wearing. This is the first time my body has changed so rapidly but I know this will not be the last time it changes and I’m content knowing however my body changes in the future it will always to be worthy of my love. Swimsuit: @andieswim
  • My body has changed a lot this past year, but it’s okay. This past year has been harder for me than I ever imagined life could be, not only has my body changed but my life has changed. These life changes made me forget about myself and worry more about others. With this tremendous grief that has hit me came changes in every aspect of myself but also came the realization that I am strong enough to keep going. My body is always worthy no matter what the scale says and what size clothes I’m wearing. This is the first time my body has changed so rapidly but I know this will not be the last time it changes and I’m content knowing however my body changes in the future it will always to be worthy of my love. Swimsuit: @andieswim
  • 63 4 17 August, 2019