I am doing a thing! The Friday before my birthday (2 weeks from now) I’m doing a solo show at The PIT Loft about (processing) my time as a psychiatric inpatient because what’s funnier than crippling depression?
I’ve been writing different versions of different plays/films/stand up routines about this for years and I’m finally just fucking doing it. So if that sounds like something you’d be interested in, please do come.
Link in bio and all that. 📸 @nara_gaisina
Posting this at 9:45 on a Friday night as a little reminder that even if you follow me and I don’t know you, I’m still really glad you’re here. Not on Instagram, but on this earth. And in case you don’t feel like it, you’re a brilliant human that is so worthy of love. So, so worthy.
Maybe you’re like me, home alone on the couch scrolling through your social media.
Maybe you’re with friends but you are still feeling totally alone.
Maybe you’re somewhere new and you’re feeling totally overwhelmed.
Maybe you’re having the best Friday night and are feeling super grateful.
Wherever you are, whatever you’re doing, whatever you’re feeling - you’re not alone. 💛
This is basically what I’ve been telling myself every morning this week. I’ve been struggling with my mental health for a while now and after having to put down Roxy two days ago (which is one of the hardest things I’ve had to go through) all I’ve wanted to do is stay in bed and not talk to anybody. I’ve worked 24 hours in the past 3 days and I’m feeling exhausted (emotionally and physically). I wanted to call in sick every morning because I didn’t think I’d make it through my shifts but I put on a happy face and just did it. Tonight I’ve been to the gym even though I wanted to just sleep as soon as I got home (which I technically did) but I’ve gotten shit done. I haven’t given up and I’m so fucking proud of myself. Anyway thought I’d share that. // #selfcare#grief#mentalhealth#wellbeing#sadness#depression#selflove#anxiety#quotes#proud
🤔💭“I wish there was one day I don't feel sad or depressed, anxiety attacks or sick.🤧😵 That I can be happy just for one whole day. Good news is: “Just because you are struggling doesn't mean you're failing.” “Be confused, it's where you begin to learn new things. Share your day with me #Speakup#mentalhealth#rotary#rotaract
Always trust your gut.
What is yours saying at the moment? 💭
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Two days ago I had an appointment with the top people in womens health. The Royal Women's. They were so incredibly kind, honest and knowledgeable.
They referred me to their persistent pain clinic. However, they said unless I want to start early menopause (with Zoladex- a chemotherapy drug, or Visanne) at the ripe age of 21, they really cant offer me anything more than what I am already doing. "It's all about improving your quality or life" they said. .
At 21 years old, with an illness that isnt going to kill me, I'm being advised on "improving my quality of life"! I dont know about you, but that is absolutely devastating. I have been told this before, but hearing it from the top people in women's health, really felt like that's it. I now have to learn to accept that I am going to be in crippling pain everyday for the rest of my life. .
I try really hard to be positive. That the next doctor is going to be the one who has some secret magical pill that's going to take it all away.... but I dont think I can do that anymore. The disappointment I feel each time is horrific, and its depressing. It makes me so angry that there isnt any better alternative. .
My head is still buzzing from my visit to the flower show yesterday....The underlying message behind the design of these gardens is so incredible and makes them all the more beautiful....A lot of the messages revolved around issues of health, the environment and sustainability. .
These pictures were from the ‘Family Monster Garden.’ The space represents the pressures faced by families - financial, health and wellbeing, communication - and the idea of creating a space where the family can come together to face their family monsters together. The pictures don’t do it justice, but it was beautiful and I could see how it could work. A haven from the outside world to just talk through things together 🌱☀️
You may have heard it too often... but there’s no doubt that breakfast is the meal that sets the course for the rest of our day. Breakfast foods that are loaded with artificial sugars is going to leave you feeling lethargic within a couple hours of eating it and will definitely not make you feel good for the rest of the day
For me I need physical and mental energy to focus and excel in Uni and the studies that i’m doing at the moment so only a breakfast high in protein, fiber, and vitamins leaves me feeling ready to take on the day.
ALSO, Breakfast kick-starts your metabolism, helping you burn calories throughout the day. If your body doesn’t get that fuel from food, you may feel completely out of energy and you'll be more likely to binge eat later in the day
Your best bet is a mix of foods that have carbs, protein, healthy fats, and fibre. Carbs will give you that energy right away, and the protein will give it to you later on. Fibre and healthy fats will keeps you feeling full🤩
Wishing you all a good weekend☀️
I took 2 days off to let my mind rest after my first exam and now it’s time to get serious and start revising again for the next and final 12 days - until my last exam📚
I go to kirkgate market in Leeds most Saturdays but I've never come across this before so I looked up the artist. @m1k3winnard from American rap artists to the history of Leeds his work is beautiful and definitely worth a look.
Once upon a time there was a girl... ⠀
...a girl who doubted herself on a daily basis.⠀
...a girl who thought that sensitivity is a weakness that should be hidden.⠀
...a girl who did not dare to speak up.⠀
...a girl who apologized too much.⠀
...a girl who let people overstep her boundaries time after time.⠀
...a girl who felt alone and misunderstood.⠀
...a girl who did not see her value.⠀
That girl was me.⠀
Sometimes, I still recognize these old patterns in myself. However, I don't let them control me anymore. Instead, I choose courage, confidence, self-reflection and positivity. ⠀
These four themes have transformed my life. I, as a highly sensitive person, never thought that I would dare to move abroad on my own, dare to start my own business, dare to share my stories with you. However, by practicing these four aspects on a daily basis, I changed. Finally, I dare to chase my dreams, speak up and spread positive energy to those who want it or need it and it feels SO GOOD!⠀
I hope that you also will find your themes that will help you to create a happy life for yourself. You deserve it just as much as everybody else. ❤️⠀
Did you know that uniform colours have been shown to help elite athletes win? ⚽️🏒 Even cooler, you don’t have to be an NHL superstar to use the power of colours to your advantage. 🎨💪 To find out how, just follow the link in our story! #DontChangeMuch
Saviez-vous qu’il est prouvé que les couleurs d’uniforme aident les athlètes élites à gagner? ⚽️🏒 Ce qui est encore plus incroyable, c’est que vous n’avez pas besoin d’être une vedette de la LNH pour utiliser le pouvoir des couleurs à votre avantage. 🎨💪 Pour découvrir comment, voir le lien dans notre bio! #ChangePasTrop
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Real talk - this morning I felt really bad about my skin. Which, in turn, made me feel in despair with myself. Sometimes it just feels so hard, like I work so hard to make my skin good and at times it feels like nothing works. Just when you’re making progress, you have a set back
I have to give myself some perspective, I’m not dying for god’s sake. Comparatively my skin is not as bad as other people’s. And then I have to wonder, why do I care so much? Do I care what other people think? Not really - I know they wouldn’t even notice to be honest if I have makeup on. Do I need to have good skin in order to feel good about myself? Is that the only way?
Why do I feel so bad about it? Is it feeling out of control and not understanding my own body? Is it because I feel like a failure and like I’ve done something wrong even though I try so hard? Putting makeup on today, I don’t know, I just felt like such a fraud. Like I can hide behind makeup but I still know that I have bad skin
And then wracking my brain for what could have caused this flare up. My relatively new acid serum purging? Being sick and my immune system can’t fight off the inflammation? Seasonal change? All of the above? Trying to understand your body is the hardest part
But. Writing this down helped. Going for a walk helped. Lying down in the sun helped. And that’s what I want to talk about here. It’s not just the superficial - how good your skin looks. It’s all the mental challenges that go along side it, how you look being tied up with how you feel. I think it’s really important to address both physical and mental factors when talking about skincare. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I tell myself all things must pass. Some days you just feel better about yourself than others. And today, I got through the day
Image @moms_stash #mentalhealth#personalpost#skinjourney#roughday#allthingsmustpass#mentalhealthisimportant#seasonalchange#flareup#realtalk#allaboutperspective#goodhabits#skincaretip@reneerouleau
i guess the people who say they care about me don’t want me to go, but the truth is i really want to. they have no clue how much pain i am in.. i just don’t wanna keep living in misery anymore. and to be honest... i’m not going to be sorry when i end it. ~ xo
It's going to be hard to top this experiance I've had. Its a big reminder to myself to see how far I have come. From being locked up in hospital, to being an Author to speaking on big stages and fulfilling my dreams. It's a journey I new I was going to go down but who would of imagined how soon this would of all happend. I've got so much more to come and look forward to seeing where I will be in a few years from now. Anything really is possible. Stay strong and win!
6 days ago I started a campaign to raise funds for @somaliforgottenminds off the back of Mental Health Awareness Month. This is a cause that is very close to my heart and one I was committed to helping. Some of you who may know me personally or who have been following my journey on social media may know a little about my weight loss and fitness journey. When I stared sharing this on my Snapchat just over 18 months ago I was in a very different place in life. I’ve spoken about it openly because I believe once we dispel the taboo regarding openly speaking about your mental wellbeing we can begin to change perceptions and attitudes towards. Speaking about what you’re feeling is important which is why I always always say #letstalkaboutit .
This jump is special for 3 reasons.
1. 18 months ago I was over the weight restriction for this jump and would therefore not have been able to do it. I’m down 6 stones fit and in the shape of my life Alhamdulilah 💪🏾 #physicalwellbeing ✅
2. I was suffering very extremely bad anxiety to the point where I was having panic attacks. Jumping from a plane would not have been imaginable. Today my mental state has great Alhamduliah #mentalwellbeing ✅
3. I will be jumping with an absolutely amazing human, sister and now dear friend @aayesha_h . You inspired and spoke words of belief into me when I didn’t love or believe in myself. You checked up on me you made me see that failure is the stepping stone to greatness. I’ve listened to you speak and I’ve felt every word! You inspire me daily and I’m so thankful to be doing this with you. ❤️❤️❤️✈️✈️
Please have a look at @somaliforgottenminds page if you are not familiar with the organisation to see the amazing work they do.
To read more and donate please click the link in my bio. Me and @aayesha_h will be jumping on Friday 31st May now. I never for moment thought that we could raise £1000 in under a week. Now I have faith that we can raise more. Please support this cause by donating and sharing this link.
What better month to give than the month of Ramadan? May Allah multiply your reward in this holy month ❤️ #nostigma
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It's a bright and summery Bank Holiday Saturday and we're celebrating the start of a long weekend with a special #Jailbirds Silent Book Disco!
North East debut author @mimskinner has helped us select a party-prison-playlist to mark the release of her new book, 'Jailbirds', and her visit to the bookshop on Thursday 30th May.
Playing all day long, we're disco-dancing to some of the best jailhouse classics, as well as some pop favourites and songs from the book. So make sure you come down to The Chapel today!
Excited to begin teaching at the sweet studio Yoga Pod.
I am as a instructer ( though still a baby one and I don't think that feeling will ever change aha) forever humbled to have the honor to teach movement and create space through this practice of attentive movement for the purpose of attaining the stillness in the mind
Yoga is a true to the core art form, and it's one that we all can share and yet make our own simultaneously. #learnandgrow
And yes I have 3 green beans (pods for yoga pod...) in my hand. I had a terrible pun and I decided not to carry through with it 🤣😅 -