Anxiety isn’t just nerves. It isn’t just pre-test gitters, or feeling uncomfortable presenting. It isn’t an excuse or a trend. It isn’t just a teenage thing.
It’s your heart racing to the point you wonder if your heart is actually going to go into failure. It’s paramedics literally thinking people are having heart attacks when they’re actually having panic attacks.
It’s having to take deep breaths and control your breathing when you’re literally sitting still but your mind is convincing you you’re going to die.
It’s that adrenaline, fight or flight response over things as small as stepping outside your bedroom, or looking somebody in the eye.
It’s shaking, sweating, palpitations. It’s nausea, vomiting, dizziness. It’s long nights petrified of things most people don’t think twice of.
It’s an absolute terror of situations that are perceived “normal” but your brain literally is setting you on fire from the inside out.
Tell me again how this is a teenage trend or an excuse, live a day with anxiety I beg you, you won’t want to live a day again. There’s nothing like having to pick yourself up from rock bottom and carry on because everyone around you think anxiety is nothing but a fad. -
Though Memorial Day is a time to remember those who have fallen it is an extremely popular party and celebration weekend in the US. If you are someone who is not recovery, please drink in moderation and make safe decisions. For some more information on alcohol use, safety, and tips follow the link
Please please keep going my darlings. You can do it, I promise you. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and you will get there. I am here cheering every single one of you on. I’m so lucky to have you all, you’re all so strong and courageous. We can do it ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I've finally finished my day programme! It's been a long intense journey - from day programme to inpatient and back again - but I can't believe how far I've come. When I look back to the ghost I was when I started, I'm genuinely unrecognisable.
I'm SO grateful for the support I had from the programme and I know that if I lived in a system of private health care there's no way I'd have been able to afford the treatment I received. So this post is a shout out to the NHS. It gets a lot of slack and as someone who both works for and has received a lot of care from the NHS I do know that it's not perfect. But it's also bloody brilliant.
With exam season happening now I thought I would do a giveaway to help get people through it, congratulate you for when you finish exams, and say thank you for following me.
You can win: livias biccy bombs in salted caramel, nakd bars in carrot cake, blueberry muffin, bakewell tart and salted caramel, pulsin raw brownies, fufil bars in peanut and caramel and chocolate caramel, grape hand gel, a tangle, a glitter squeezy ball, three faces masks and a mini tsum tsum.
To enter all you have to do is tag a friend in the comment (each comment is a separate entry), like this picture and follow this account. For three extra entries post this giveaway on your story and tag me in it.
The giveaway will close on June 8th so you have two weeks to enter💓
948012 hours ago
Day 26 #mentalhealthawarenessmonth
So if you have a headache or another physical pain and you take a pill, no one blinks an eyelid but if you mental pain whether it be #depression#anxiety or something else and you take medication people appear to look at you differently...why?! I do not know why except that #mentalillness still seems to be a massive taboo. We need to change this.
On this bank holiday weekend when a lot of us will be over-indulging, it's important to remember the impact that alcohol can have on mental health.
We all know the physical symptoms of a hangover (Who's looking forward to tomorrow's achey head and dry mouth?) but did you know that alcohol can increase the symptoms of anxiety and depression?
This can be because of lots of different things; you might feel worse thinking about the things you regret saying or doing the night before, maybe it's because of the impact that alcohol has on your quality of sleep, maybe it's because alcohol interferes with your brain chemistry, or maybe you feel physically awful and it's worrying you.
All of this will pass and you'll feel better again soon. Next time just remember to assess how you're feeling and whether it's really a good idea for you to potentially make yourself feel worse the next day.
TO BE PROUD OF YOUR WINS
today i’m proud. i’m proud of randomly drinking orange juice. twice today i’ve done that and it’s kinda nice, the freedom of picking juice over water. i drink water too because sometimes i’m thirsty for water. today i was thirsty for orange juice, which happens some days. so those days i drink a bunch or orange juice.
i believe my body is a very clever being and i believe it has a reason behind its juice cravings. it may want sugar and it may want vitamins. and... maybe it’s none of my business. maybe i just listen. listen and be proud of how i cooperated with my body.
i know that sometimes recovery actions can feel so wrong that being proud of completing them is hard. even considering them wins can be hard. but tell yourself that it’s a win, tell yourself that even if you’re not proud you should be. do that to teach your brain how it SHOULD respond when you complete these recovery actions! right now you can’t control how it reacts, because your brain is wired that way. it starts the automatic thoughts. when you rewire, you change the automatic thoughts, from the negative ones to new, positive ones.
i could go on all day about how easy it isn’t. but we all know it’s bloody hard and the difficulty of your task doesn’t make it any less necessarily. but yeah... it IS hard.
We have a new baby bunny in the house! ❤️ This last week has been great. I had a few extra rough weeks but this week and yesterday have been so good to me and now I remember why and how to enjoy life again. We were on the brink of a break up with my boyfriend but decided what we have is too precious to give up on just yet, we'll try and work on our relationship a little more. I have felt bad for making it hard on us with my ptsd, we have had a lot of other difficult things going on too but I feel like a lot of our issues are my fault anyway.
Last night I talked with his best friend and he said a lot of things that made me feel better. He also said I never should feel bad about my ptsd or my past. Then he said my boyfriend has been broken for so long but not after we got together. I feel so sure that we can work through the stress we've been going through this winter and spring and we can come out of this stronger. We can find a way to make this work with my ptsd and dissociation. #mentalhealth#mentalhealthawareness#mentalhealthrecovery#dissociation#dissociativedisorder#ptsd#cptsd#recoverywin#traumaandrelationships#relationship#hope#fighter#recovery#pastdoesntdefineyou#happiness
17112 hours ago
THIS IS THE BIGGEST RECOVERY WIN TO DATE🎉 •
For so long I have been craving a McFlurry, thinking about it, going back and forth but I have never ever ever let myself have anything from McDonald’s. To even think about ordering something gave me anxiety but...today was not that day.
Me and my amazing stepdad, (who literally has the best relationship with food, ) went on an adventure and we were starving afterwards and he was craving a cheeseburger and the thought entered my mind of a McFlurry but in came the anorexic thoughts that were utter bullshit until my stepdad literally asked like he read my mind “want a McFlurry” and I bursted out laughing and finally said “yes, please order me one, I want one so bad”. I said it before anorexia could answer so FUCK YOU ANOREXIA and thank you John (stepdad) 💪🏻 •