So, I’ve been obsessing over the thought of what it means to “be alive” and what “self care” is these last few days. .
Most know I have a past with bulimia for about 2-3 years. Over the last 6-8 months I’ve felt ALMOST normal again. It’s hard when you have a deep rooted passion for something and then it gets turned upside down into a problem. And It’s something that NO ONE ELSE is gonna nag you about. Because it’s something only YOU feel. At one point I had completed goals, had supplement endorsements, and soooo much joy from my body. So when things went downhill, It was a total blow to my pride, my self esteem, my standards for myself. The whole 9 yards. And it was hard to be passionate or “push through” when that thing that once caused great joy, is now just a trigger.
Is also like to say that just because you’ve “overcome” something, doesn’t mean you don’t struggle with it anymore. It might just mean it’s manageable. I don’t think I understood how serious habits were. Good habits shape good character, bad habits spiral into self hate.
Anyway. Everyone talks about “self care” and “balance” these days. And when most people think of “self care” they think of a product to make your skin clearer, or maybe drinking more than 2 glasses of water a day. I’m not sure about balance yet, but I’m pretty sure self care is being intuitive with your mental and emotional health. And ur physical and spiritual self. Knowing when to say “no” to something that makes you feel any less good than you already feel. You shouldn’t have to push things to their furthest point before knowing that something isn’t right 🤷🏼♂️ You shouldn’t have to have almost OD’d on heroin to enjoy waking up every day. You shouldn’t have to have a past with suicide to understand how rare it is to be alive. Or to have even been born.
So yeah. That’s what self care is. To me, at least.
A true delight and honor to share the stage with the incomparable @yujawang.official 🙌🌟 Thank you for the exquisite musical memories with the Strauss Violin Sonata and all the laughs throughout our week together 👯♀️💕
비할데 없이 뛰어난 #유자왕 과 무대를 함께할 수 있어서 진심으로 기쁘고 영광스러웠어요 🙌🌟 슈트라우스 바이올린 소나타를 연주하면서 아름다운 음악적 추억을 함께 할 수 있어서 너무 고마웠고 한 주 동안 함께 웃었던 지난 시간들 잊지 못할 것 같아요👯♀️💕
😎 Food for thought because ya boy stay up: -
This month I independently released my new single “Come Closer” and: -
✔️Number 1 dance record iTunes nz, number 2 song iTunes nz ✔️International blog premiere
✔️Radio AirPlay on 5 stations; 2 national commercial, 1 international, 2 alternative ✔️ 1 national radio interview -
All without a PR team, label and management just some dope fucking work ethic!
🎙Hoy nos ha visitado @huracan_romantica para mostrarnos su talento y contarnos todas las novedades sobre la gira y su primer trabajo 'Mierda nueva'
🎙 Así sonaba su single 'Esto es lo que soy' en directo en @playcultura.