Honest t a l k: When I first saw this photo my initial thought was “wow look how happy I am” on second thought all I could see were my huge, “horse” gums, my strong laugh lines, my lack of cleavage, the strong dislike I have for my nose and how different I look with a face full of make up—so I never posted it.
I realize none of these thoughts hold any value unless I give them value, problem being I’ve spent the majority of my adult life giving them lots and lots of value—slowly destroying my own confidence and self esteem. Now, these things I dislike about myself, some are my own thoughts others come from things people have said through out my life that have stuck with me internally like gum stuck underneath a park bench.
I’m learning though, I’m breaking free from that girl because she isn’t me. The inner me and the outer me have been in direct conflict with one another—but not any more and the journey is so rewarding.
I’m making a promise to myself to find my inner me and bring her out, to live in the moment, take things s l o w, to read more, scroll less, to love me a little more, with less comparison, and consciously making more time for me and those who bring out the best in me—exactly how I felt this day, during this shoot, captured perfectly in this photo.
Thank you @rachelbowmanphotography for forcing me out of my comfort zone and helping me find me—I’ll always be so grateful for this day and for these memories ♥️ #findyourself#findyourfreedom#beyou#doyou#comfortzone#selflove#selfcare#findyourhappy#feels#happiness #bodyimage#positivevibes#selfrespect#photooftheday#instaphoto#photography#supportlocal#photoshoot#photographyislifee
Mi piacerebbe portati in collina vedere il mondo come si declina portarti più in alto, più su delle nuvole tu che profumi di sogni e di fragole 🌹
3235 hours ago
Ekphrasis was great and I was literally having fun after a long depressing month.
Ok, so Ekphrasis was all about describing a portrait through words of our poetry, in such a way that a person can imagine the whole layout even if they haven't seen it at all.
There were 6 portraits made by @moodymati@yantrapurush and choosed the blue beauty. And I swear the moment I entered that area, my eyes were stuck on this one.
So, when we all were asked to write 4 stanzas on what we are seeing in the portrait, without wasting any moment I wrote on my chit 2️⃣ There were a pretty lot of thoughts in my mind, but I was mostly confused with two, one was highly personal and another was semi personal. 😁 So, I decided to go with the second one. And here's an incomplete poem thag I wrote that day, I hope @moodymati enjoys it a bit (I dont know, but I do noy intend to complete this one, because of some personal things, but anyways I know I have written it in the worst way possible, please forgive me @moodymati 🙏)
मेरे बचपन की बात है,
जब अपने होने पर मुझे यकीन न था, दुनिया बस मेरी मेरे परिवार में बसती थी
थी मैं सबकी लाडली l
पर उसी लाड प्यार ने बिगाड़ा था, सब केहते थे,
बिगड़ी बच्ची है, ज़ीद करती है,
सबसे लड़ती है,
अपनी बात मनवाने के लिए कुछ भी करती है l
सच केहते थे, थी मैं ज़रा सी लड़ाकू, थोड़ी मुंहफट,
अच्छी बातें मैं कर नहीं सकती,
वो क्या हे ना गुस्सा ज़रा जल्दी आता था मुझे l
गलत को सही, सही को गलत
कहा नहीं जाता था मुझसे, गलतियां करती थी ,
ताकि गलतियों से सीख सकूं l
बावजूद के लाखों बुराइयाँ थी मुझमें, एक मेरी माँ थी, मेरी दोस्त और मेरी अदालत,
प्यार से मेरे बालों को सहलाती, और मेरी गलतियों पर मुझे सिखाती l
कुछ खास किसीको पसंद ना आती थी मैं,
इसीलिए हर वक़्त अपने दुनिया मे मदमस्त रहती थी मैं, एक कमरा था मेरा, या फिर कहूँ के बस वहीं थी मेरी दुनिया l