Today we feeling cute lounging around and dancing on this gorgeous Sunday. Just trying to procrastinating on doing my paper y’all haha 😒😬how is y’all’s Sunday going?
5152817 February, 2019
Contemplation. I’ve been doing a LOT of that lately. I was probably contemplating something in this picture too. I love that I look like I’m up to no good. I’m contemplating taking exotic vacations. Contemplating the first steps to new beginnings. Contemplation really doesn’t get me anywhere, though.
More sunshine means springier looks this week and I love it! Also, this probably goes without saying, but 95% of these looks (and my wardrobe, generally) are thrifted. .
What percentage of the clothes in your closet are thrifted!? Have you been able to find access to more #plussizeresale or is it still a struggle for you!? #idratherbethrifting#whenthriftersthrift
9605731 March, 2019
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I made Harry POTter. 😂
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I wrote an essay in my book about my struggle with jeans in regards to my eating disorders and body dysmorphia.
The working title: “Jeans Two Sizes Too Small”. I chronicled my eating disorder and what that looked and felt like day to day.
I had this secret mini booklet that I used to input my weight and measurements. I’d take this long measuring tape (the one seamstresses use) and measure my neck, bicep, chest, waist, stomach, hip circumference, and each individual thigh.
I’d do that every single day. And, jot down my findings. Loss of inches meant a good day. I was worthy. Gain or even remaining the same weight/inches meant that I beat myself up and do better the next day. Do better by eating less and exercising more no matter how sick I got.
On the next page was a meticulous outline of what I ate. I noticed that as time went on, less and less food intake covered those pages.
There were these denim jeans that I specifically bought two sizes too small. They were my dream jeans. The jeans that the better version of myself could fit in. My #fitspiration
I’d do the denim jiggle dance to try and pull them up over my fat thighs. They wouldn’t budge. I’d plop down in a fit of hysteria and cry. For me, nothing tasted as good as being skinny had. And, no one knew because fat ppl couldn’t possibly have the same eating disorders as thin folk.
I finally got into those jeans after months of dangerous dieting habits. In my eyes, that wasn’t enough. I was still fat. So I set out to replace that pair with another that was 2 sizes too small.
Have you ever bought clothes that were supposed to be your motivation outfit? What was your experience of either gaining or losing weight and no longer being able to fit into your clothes? Let’s chat. 📷 @ronanksm #newyorkblogger#psootd#plussize#instafashion#bodypositive#bgki#effyourbeautystandards#portraitphotography#pizzasisters4lyfe#blackgirlsrock#blackgirlswhoblog#londonblogger#psfashion#muslimgirl#fatacceptance#seventeen#selflove#turbanista#honormycurves#bodydysmorphia#instabeauty#intersectionalfeminism#fashionblogger#eatingdisorderrecovery#editorial#hijabi#plussizemodel#denim#fitnessmotivation
It’s been a massive weekend with Easter & my Birthday tomorrow 🙌🏻 ‘it’s all happening’ I absolutely love this Black dress tee from @kmartaus its so comfortable heaps of different ways to rock it to, but since I’m going grocery shopping & the suns out I’m rocking it like this today. Yup, I chopped my hairs and I went back Ginger 👩🏻🦰🤷♀️!! .
How’s your Easter Weekend been ? Do you celebrate Easter season ? I do. .
Get your fuckin tissues 😭 *Swipe right for 2nd half*
When my publisher let me know that I could release the news, I decided to make a video. Of course, it took a very emotional turn.
I toggled back and forth with editing and releasing this or not, because I hate for people to see me this vulnerable. I literally hate crying in public or even alone cuz it makes me feel weak. Like I’m not in control of my emotions.
For so long, I waited to cry until I was alone and sucked it up, put on a hard exterior because Black and brown women, and just women in all forms are told to suck it up. Crying is weakness for many. Even men.
My book Unashamed: Musings of a Fat, Black Muslim is a testament that through pain and trauma, we can find healing through the art of storytelling.
I never thought I’d get a book deal. Although I always dreamt of it. I never thought I’d be spilling the tea, writing stories about the people who’ve done me so wrong and making them take accountability. I never thought I’d make it this far as to where my book that has my Black ass face on it and my fat body wearing colors and my turban styled hijab would ever be sold internationally.
I cried even editing this last night, but I think if you watch this two-part video, you’ll truly know what this means and how I feel about it.
I encourage you to pre-order this book. My memoir. If you are a fan of mine, if you love me dearly, if you want to see someone like me rise above a very white-washed industry, you can have a part in history by supporting me. It’s available everywhere! Also, the links to purchase are in my bio 💁🏽♀️ And if you can’t find the link I’ll send it to you personally!
Have you ever cried in public or do you cry alone? Do you see crying as a weakness? Did you order my book Unashamed yet?!?! Let’s chat. #newyorkblogger#psootd#plussize#instafashion#bodypositive#bgki#honormycurves#effyourbeautystandards#pizzasisters4lyfe#blackgirlswhoblog#fashion#londonblogger#psfashion#blackgirlmagic#muslimgirl#bodyconfidence#plusmodel#feminist#wiw#intersectionalfeminism#turbanista#bodydysmorphia#fatacceptance#selflove#authorsofinstagram#goldenconfidence#beautyblogger
75810419 April, 2019
If you think you are pretty, you're called vain.
If you take too many selfies, you're called narcissistic.
If you appreciate how you look, you're called shallow.
If you do makeup, you're said to be hiding something.
If you don't do makeup, you're said to not be trying.
If you do anything, you are going to be judge regardless.
So go ahead and do whatever the fuck you want that makes you happy.
Other people's opinions of you should only matter to you if let them.
2261119 April, 2019
"La cosa più importante in una relazione è che a entrambi piaccia la pizza, altrimenti non funzionerà mai."
I’ll probably get really quiet and scream internally, let’s be real. I 💗 @thefuckitdiet
941119 April, 2019
Big lashes, big wings, bigger attitude. 😘
207919 April, 2019
So, I believe this user was trying to say in the haste of bad grammar: “Are you even Muslim? Are you trying to taint Islam?” *Swipe right*
A good question yet so ignorantly executed.
I was recently asked in a workshop if I felt that I was becoming the poster child for Islam. If I felt the pressure of having to make Muslims look good. Make fat people look worthy. Make Black and Brown folk appear human.
If I felt the pressure of being visible in such a fucked up landscape in which I am not afforded mistakes like my white counterparts. If they mess up they get 99 excuses, if I fuck up then my whole career is done and anyone who looks like me is blamed. No do-overs.
It is so heavy claiming intersections that society seems to hate. But, I claim them. Because I can’t escape them. They are who I am. I am constantly in a back and forth battle with myself over being Muslim enough or some watered down version of what we think Muslims are.
I do not need you to rub salt in the wound because we are all struggling with identifying who we are.
I can’t be anyone else but me. If that taints Islam for you then that’s a personal issue. And, if a sole Muslim has that much power to taint Islam (or any other group for that matter) then perhaps you need to dig deeper into what Islam means for you. I am powerful but not that powerful.
No, I am not less Muslim than my more modest sisters. No, I don’t fill the role of your typical Instagram-able hijabi. Yes, I am Muslim and I am not tainting Islam. It is just as much yours as it is mine.
Do you feel like the poster child for your group/culture/religion? Why are people afraid and down right angry when someone starts living in their truths? Has this happened to you? Let’s chat. 📷 @danielalisi #newyorkblogger#psootd#plussize#instafashion#bodypositive#bgki#effyourbeautystandards#portraitphotography#pizzasisters4lyfe#blackgirlsrock#blackgirlswhoblog#londonblogger#psfashion#muslimgirl#fatacceptance#seventeen#selflove#turbanista#honormycurves#bodydysmorphia#instabeauty#intersectionalfeminism#fashionblogger#eatingdisorderrecovery#editorial#hijabi#makeup#makeuptransformation#selfie#covergirl
1,2575518 April, 2019
I wasn't born this extra... But I've grown into it well. 😉
1861118 April, 2019
A "Throwback" to last Sunday. A femme tomboy look with the pocket men's T-Shirt and messy bun.
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I love this woman. She writes beautifully on such important topics, she's a model, a content creator, a public speaker and also works in branding. She's a proud Muslim feminist and an activist.
TW: Fatphobia, bullying, suicide
"A 10-year old boy named Philip committed suicide a few days ago because of constant bullying because of his size. His little brother found him.
When I tell you that my heart is hurting right now. I keep thinking what if. What if the media portrayed fat people as human beings? What if society hadn’t made fat people the butt of the jokes where thin people wore fat suits to make fun of real people who can’t or won’t shed their outer layers? What if fat people were cast as leads in roles as love interests instead of secondary characters next to a popular thin person?
What if instead of policing our kids and what goes into their mouths, we teach self-love and mental health instead of how much worth you gain as pounds and inches start to melt off?
What if we stopped making fat-phobic jokes around our kids so they won’t go back and make other kids suffer?
When I tell you that I’ve been bullied in person and online about my weight, I have. I have the screenshots to show it. But, guess what? My fat ass body has afforded me more opportunities than I can count.
Also, if you are wondering why someone is fat, want to crack a joke, want to jeer or laugh at someone who is fat, then please go fuck yourself because your hate isn’t welcomed nor is it wanted. Fatphobia kills.
Have you heard about this case in Philly? How are you feeling about this tragedy? Have you ever been bullied about your weight (gain or loss), online or in person? What can we do to eradicate Fatphobia?" Leah
Just because you think I’m ugly, doesn’t mean I am.
Just because you believe it, doesn’t make it true.
Just because you think it, doesn’t make it accurate.
My beauty is not validated by your approval of it’s existence.
Dress: @thehourlondon (loaned for an event)
I form weird emotional attachments to inanimate objects.
I have no idea who this man was. But, his remembrance shirt ended up at a thrift store. Me being the weird emotional empath that I am... Had to give it a new home.
Rest easy, Harry.
1051317 April, 2019
I saw a girl doing planks on an exercise ball. I’ve been working out regularly for the last three years, so I thought to myself that it’s worth a try.
I’m such a perfectionist—a lot of us are—even though we know perfection doesn’t exist, that it is a social construct.
In my head, I’d get my legs up there and have no problem. I’d last for at least 20 seconds and my form would be on point.
As you can see by the first attempt, I knew I was in trouble. The camera was rolling and my fat body was going to look so stupid falling down. Trolls would be like “sHe CaNt dO iT cUz ShE’s fAt!”
Maybe my form was all wrong and the second time would be better. It was. I get up there but it hadn’t looked as good as the other gal that did it. Again, I fall on third attempt.
I’m posting this because if I was afraid of looking stupid, embarrassing myself I surely wouldn’t have gotten to where I am. There’s a certain amount of fearlessness to looking stupid at times.
At a point in your life, your career, you will fumble, fall, slip, and trip while people point and laugh. Ask you why you are doing what you are doing and have absolutely no faith in you to succeed.
But, as you are fumbling, falling, slipping, and tripping each time you are learning, preparing, and honing your skills. Because one day your efforts are gonna stick. And, when they do, the very same people who said you looked stupid, laughed at you behind your back are gonna be the ones asking how’d you get there.
What have you failed at, but continued to do, and is now better at? Have you had people ever tell you what you couldn’t do, made fun of you, but now have returned? LOL. I know I have. Let’s chat. P.S. Tips on getting this plank better 💁🏽♀️ #eatingdisorderrecovery#newyorkblogger#psootd#plussize#instafashion#bodypositive#bodydysmorphia#fitnessmotivation#effyourbeautystandards#beforeandafterweightloss#pizzasisters4lyfe#blackgirlswhoblog#londonblogger#psfashion#blackgirlmagic#muslimgirl#plusmodel#feminist#turbanista#ootd#planetfitness#fatfitness#honormycurves#fitness#psootd#bodygoals#selflove#fatacceptance#cardio#fitnessmotivation#afrogirlfitness#plank
82713017 April, 2019
Am I the next superhero? Bc I would be okay with that? Saves you with one music recommendation at a time 🌪 🎶
Being #Fat shouldn't mean my only treatment is weight loss 😣😥😢😭 I asked my lung doctor what I could do as part of my #PulmonaryEmbolism recovery to strengthen my lungs and she told me that she'd love to refer me to barriatric surgery.
I 100% will say that when I weighed less AND my fitness level was better that I physically felt better. I also can say 100% that I've weighed more than I do now and had less trouble breathing.
#weightlosssurgery isn't a quick fix and not being #fat isn't going to solve the fact that my lungs are weak AF right now.
But, my treatment plan is centered around my weight even though this was not caused by my weight.
What treatment plan does something who is straight sized get? What treatment plan did @serenawilliams get?
Also, I still have blood clots in my lung. My body hadn't recovered from this experience, but surgery is a safe option?
Being fat shouldn't limit my treatment options to only be weight loss related.