They always say when you start therapy you are going to feel worse before you get better and...
It's so true.
It takes a lot of courage and bravery to talk about the things you have learnt to bury and it's painful to feel them.
However, we have to feel the pain to heal. 💞
9112216 October, 2019
Something about scars, I don’t mean just physical ones, but also PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). Wanted this to be about hidden trauma that’s difficult for others to understand, either because the individual can’t explain or because other people don’t want to listen. Lyric is by @garbage .
Does that make sense?
[image description: hand drawn illustration of a right arm with white skin and a blue sleeve with sparkly lilac stars holding a flag. The flag says “you should see my scars and try to comprehend that which you’ll never comprehend - garbage”. The background is purple with a galaxy. ] #ptsd#posttraumaticstressdisorder#selfharmrecovery#mentalhealthrecovery#garbage#bleedlikeme
Hi, I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse. For most of my adult life, I focused on being right, doing the proper things, knowing what to say. I did my best to bury my ugly bits, because who would love me in my ugly?
And then I started to come undone a year ago. I immediately reached out for therapy. I was trying to save myself, but unraveling more each day. So I thought, let me reach out to my friends.
———————————- I have some amazing friends. But one wasn’t so amazing when I told him about what happened to me. I even asked him for support, since therapy taught me to ask for what I need. He told me that he couldn’t. I haven’t learned how to accept and respect his “no.” In my survivor’s arrogance, I thought he would understand and support me. So I pushed. He pushed back.
I felt like I wasn’t good enough to be his friend. Tears are rolling down my cheeks as I type this, because I discovered many things about myself, but one of the saddest things is that I never thought I was good enough for anything. I am working on it. Some days are easier than others. ——————————————
I was so focused on this one person, that I did not appreciate all the amazing friends I had. The ones who called me, the ones who visited me, the beautiful soul who invited me to her beach house in FL, the text encouragement when I was anxious. The people who understood that my trauma was driving my behavior, and by giving me compassion, showed me how to give myself compassion. That I had a right to be needy. That it was ok to make mistakes. That I was fine just the way I am. I’m not perfect, it’s ok not to be perfect.
So this post resonated with me. I blamed myself for the dissolution of our friendship. But it was never about me. It was about him, and something he could not give me. It is a bittersweet lesson, something many survivors of sexual abuse learn. It takes a long time to learn it, because healing is a process. ————————————————
what is a special interest?
special interest is a colloquialism used to decribe the restrictive, repetitive interests of #actuallyautistic folx! autists tend to hyperfixate on interests in a very narrow and in depth way, often researching and becoming experts on their special interests! for me, my special interests are my best friends! i could spend hours just learning or talking about them, and i often turn to them for comfort! i have quite a few, but they include disney, gilmore girls, over the garden wall, architecture, eleanor & park, psychology, harry potter, and autumn and october holiday, as well as a few others! special interests are often used as a coping skill when an autistic person is stressed or otherwise having a difficult time. autists do not always choose their special interests, so its important to accept and understand special interests and be kind to autistic folx regardless of whether you like their special interests or not!
be safe, friends, and talk about your special interests in the comments! 🍂
This might seem like a random picture to post on an instagram account promoting Plant Based Nutrition & Health Coaching, but I promise you,
it’s as relevant as it gets.
This photo was taken of me about 10 years ago, a few months after a long stay in hospital,
12 blood transfusions, 6 immunoglobulin transfusions and very high doses of prednisone.
The producers of the show (Blue Light Burlesque) that I had been performing in regularly at the time, came to visit me almost every single day that I was there fighting for my life, and I will never forget that.
Recovery was an incredibly trying and exhausting process, but as difficult as it was on my body, it did almost as big a number on my mind. My mental health, that is.
As a result, I definitely suffered some form of PTSD and developed a sometimes crippling anxiety disorder, as facing one’s mortality tends to do.
Yet still, with my fatigue and my fears weighing heavily on my, my will to live, and I mean truly live, not just for myself, but for my 3 beautiful daughters, was stronger.
The founder of the troupe, Cléo asked me and checked in with me repeatedly,
“Are you sure you’re ready to get back on stage? Are you sure you have the energy?”
Looking back, it was probably too soon, but it was the only thing that made me feel like something
other than a sick person. It was the only thing I felt I had control of.
After the show, I felt so proud of myself.
When I saw the photos and video footage, I was horrified.
I didn’t recognize myself, or my big round shiny face. When I looked at this photo I felt embarrassed that I got up on stage like that, for all my friends and fans to see.
Now when I look at this picture, I feel so grateful to be alive, and I feel so proud of the big round shiny face that was brave enough not to let her illness kick her ass into submission.
This picture is no longer a picture of me, when I was sick.
This picture is of a woman and her strength, her determination, and her will to live, and I mean truly live.
1110 minutes ago
I'm not even a 1/8 done.. I've been trying my best not to go into a full flashback by walking around and keep splashing myself and stuff and doing some of this animation, it's take 3 hours I'm not even 1/8th dine on This short af scene but ya
Research out of Louisiana State University found that blueberries were able to lower PTSD symptoms in a study on rats.
How it works?
• Serotonin is a neurotransmitter thought to regulate anxiety, happiness, and mood.
• Blueberries can help in increasing levels of serotonin in the brain.
• Low levels of Serotonin are associated with depression.
• Increasing levels of Serotonin by consuming blueberries is thought to play a role in correcting the imbalance of Serotonin found in PTSD. .
(Image credit @theswedishcountrysidehome )
A natural alternative to healing from past trauma... 🌿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
We all know that trauma is often the root cause of conditions like depression, anxiety and PTSD, right?⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
But instead of acknowledging this reality, traditional medicine tends to address the symptoms rather than the trauma itself. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
With the holistic treatment of trauma, however, symptoms like depression, anxiety and PTSD 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐛𝐞 𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Treatment of PTSD and trauma-related mental illness largely focuses on treating the mind with therapy and the body with medication. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬𝐧’𝐭 𝐞𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡. 🤷🏽⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
A holistic and natural approach that addresses the 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐝, 𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲, 𝐬𝐨𝐮𝐥 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐭 is necessary to tap into the higher brain functions that determine our deepest emotions and well-being.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
That's why I'm HUGE advocate for holistic healing! 🌿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
👉🏽 𝐂𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐤 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐢𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐛𝐢𝐨 to discover how women just like you are 𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 healing from their mental and emotional pain caused by past trauma and are 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 living a life free of trauma-related symptoms such as depression, anxiety and PTSD.
1124 minutes ago
Growing up with severe depression I've always thought about what the purpose of my life was. I still have those days...but I'm getting better. With the help of my love (@graphiiiix ) he reminds me that I am loved, that I am beautiful, and the purpose of me being here is to love him, and be here for Kate (my niece). I believe him I just wish i could see her more.
Growing up with what happened when I was 17 still completely bothers me. This morning I woke up thinking to myself why did it happen? Is it my fault it happened? Why is he trying to find me? Depression for me seems like it'll never go away but with the love I have for my husband and love like a mother to Katelyn I'll always be happy in my heart. And I'll always be so thankful for my life and the both of them. Life is so fragile and alot of us take that for granted. -
Yesterday I was able to tour K9s For Veterans Nfp facility. This wonderful organization run by Mike Tellerino who is also a veteran gifts service dogs to veterans. Because of the circumstances surrounding my sons death and the trauma that many veterans deal with from combat coupled with Isaiah’s love of dogs, I felt compelled to donate to this wonderful organization. Thank you Mike and K9s for Veterans for all that you do! K9s for Veterans mission is to help veterans with post traumatic stress disorder transition back to civilian life once their military service has ended with the help of trained service dogs. We are committed to educating the public about the plight of veterans with PTSD and streamlining the process for them to get service dogs, so they get the help they need... Before it’s too late. #ptsd#ptsdawareness#k9sforveterans#michaelisaiahnance
4125 minutes ago
Smoking was "one of my oldest, dearest friends," she said of her habit. "To not have that relationship was very, very scary." 🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬We all have a vice or 3. Be it anger, sadness, pills, booze or biting fingernails down to a nub, what works to relive this marriage can be very difficult to navigate. It’s time we all become more flexible and judgement free about possibilities for hope and healing. You never know what will set you free. 🦄🌈
Did someone order some rain with today’s training?
Know your purpose for starting and a little rain will be nothing more than a mild inconvenience.
If you are interested in taking control of your symptoms of PTSD but are unsure where to start, take a look at our 4-week challenge, connect with one of our partners, or join the virtual community on Facebook.
4-Wk Challenge: https://www.operationrsf.org/4-week-challenge
Det är inte ovanligt att utövare av våld söker sig till yngre partners eftersom att de ofta är lättare att styra och kontrollera då de inte har byggt upp sina referensramar än när det kommer till förhållanden. De söker också efter partners som inte har fått sätta gränser som barn och/eller har en destruktiv familjedynamik, då ribban för vilket beteende som känns ”normalt” för oss ofta börjar i barndomen.
Detta betyder inte att utövare inte någonsin väljer en äldre partner från en hälsosam familj och med rika livsupplevelser när det kommer till förhållanden. Utövaren av våld kan se dessa som en välkommen utmaning… Lite som att bryta ned dem har liknelser med att tämja en vildhäst.
Anonym erfarenhet av våld i ett förhållande ^
Har du egna erfarenheter av emotionellt våld? Tveka inte att skicka in till mig på PM
What a great day spent with @old_goat72 and @glynnebc talking about mental health issues with veterans and working on the @rock2recoveryuk remembrance 2019 shots,lots of dits,lots of giggles and most importantly lots of talking,keep an eye out...
📸 taken by a remote redhead aka Mrs Phot.
Are you a veteran or serving member of the UK armed forces or a family member/loved one of a veteran/serving and finding things difficult? Get in touch with @rock2recoveryuk .
ANXIETY doesn’t always look like being in fetal position and rocking back and forth. ⛔️ Sometimes it’s avoiding people
⛔️ Sometimes it’s isolation
⛔️ Sometimes it’s manic thinking
⛔️ Sometimes unable to even get out of bed
⛔️ Sometimes it’s bursts of anger
It comes in many forms we need to recognize in us, without outside influences 🙏🏽 I got nutrition back in my body after the pressure of #lupus#fibromyalgia#ptsd#depression and #medication coupled with being overweight and having to much body fat and barely eating tried to take me out. I got all of my mental health together, and I incorporated real nutrition. That’s the basis of my program. That’s the science behind healing not just what’s in the mirror but the inside- what truly matters.
I appreciate all the kind words. I appreciate the encouragement to keep encouraging others! I love helping people rediscover their health, their mental wellness, their physical strength, their financial freedom, and spiritual being. With how busy I am and I know many others are, this online community is sometimes closer to me then my own family!
I want to continue to use my platform to bring us together when we face our darkest days 💕
Taking action of some kind can be a powerful antidote to depression. If you're depressed and your daily routine and obligations feel impossible, think about those actions that might either help you conserve energy (such as getting into bed at night when you're tired, rather than staying up late taking in blue light from a screen) or will help clear some mental space and bolster your sense of productivity (opening your mail, finally returning something you've been meaning to take back for a while).
No, self-care alone isn't a substitute for treatment and other healing modalities, nor can it upend systemic forces of oppression that contribute to your suffering, but if it can help manage your mood symptoms slightly, even briefly, it might be worth giving it a shot.
What I've listed here or what works for someone else might not work for you. I'd love to hear what is your go-to, most basic form of self-care, or something you can commit to trying?
If you’re enduring the process of breaking free from entanglement, codependency or old karmic stories & you are on, or about to begin your menstrual cycle? Then you do not know how lucky you are.
Spirit is currently working with you & aiding you to release the pent up energies that have kept you bound to old timelines & karmic narratives.
Allow yourself to release intentionally with this cycle.
I’ve mentioned before that our period is a time for us to gain closer understanding of what wishes to leave us this time round. What spills, as our blood does.
There’s extra energy behind moving these things out & these realisations into place as our body purifies us of toxicity, of the unnecessary.
You were especially emotional at this time for a reason. PMS let the last of your tears/fears of this situation out. -SeekCindy (Oh & how ironic, the artist who painted this picture named it ‘ascension’).
Artist - Steve Goad
Feeling better today than I have in years. I am on 2 new meds Propranolol and Trazodone, I feel so calm I forgot what it feels like to not be anxious, I also hadn't slept a full night since I was 18... last night I slept. It's amazing how stress, trauma, abuse, and mental illness can really control your life. Every day I am feeling more me again.
9644 minutes ago
Welcome in a new mindset when it comes to your relationships. “You can’t solve a problem with the same mind that created it” -Dr Wayne Dyer
Today, October 10th, is World Mental Health Day.
This is me; Ella. I'm 25 years old. I'm a Christian. I'm engaged to the love of my life who also happens to be my best friend. I studied to be an art therapist and I recently started my first job as a therapist. I love to spend time with my family and friends, I love to travel and learn more about other places, cultures and histories. I love to sing, to paint, to write and to make things. I love to play games and play football. I love our cats and animals in general and want to pet them all. I love to tell lame jokes and tell funny stories that no one will understand because I'm laughing too hard throughout the telling. I love going out and go places but I'm also quite content snuggling under a blanket and watching Netflix and, of course, Disney+. I'm a huge potterhead and love me some Lord of the Rings. I love pumpkin spice, butterbeer, pepernoten, Turkish delight, red velvet cheesecake and lots of other way to sweet things. I love curling up with a good book and right now I'm hooked on fiction mixed with psychology. I'm a big fan of candles that smell like autumn, like apples and cinnamon and everything. I'm introverted and by times extraverted, I'm shy with a chance of being very chatty, I don't watch horror movies because my fantasy is too lively but I'll read the plots on Wikipedia, and I'm always interested in people and things and just curious in general. I'm a lot.
Oh yeah, also; I've battled an eating disorder for years, I've suffered from depressy, I've been diagnosed with a generalized anxiety disorder and I've been struggling with PTSD for six years now.
But that does not define me.
I am kind, I am strong, I am good.
I love, I learn, I dream, I grow.
I am more than my label.
I am open.
I'm open about mental health. It's important. People should know they aren't alone. That it's not weird. That you're not crazy. It's okay, and it will get better. It will ❤️ I promise.
Love, Ella 🌸
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