Unfortunately, the doctor has not cleared me yet. Today we received the prognosis of the new test results: still crisis times, still near hospitalization, and still suicides scores very high. I drove home with tear droplets falling; I was disappointed and angry with myself. My goals to save the world, to help humanity, when would they, when will they ever come to fruition? And, to think, I was ready to march into the doctor’s office and tell her we no longer needed to see her anymore. Instead, she told me the exact opposite. ⠀⠀
I found myself crying out, “When Lord, when will this all be over and when will I be back to myself again?” I questioned God and what He was doing with all of this, this slowness of healing, this slowness of life. But maybe that’s exactly what I need, today, in this moment. To reflect on who God is, and what He is doing. ⠀⠀
God moves mountains when we stand still, even when we stand still, and especially when we stand still. That all we need to do is bask in His presence and experience Him, and that we need do nothing to experience the glory of God other than reflect and rest in Him. Isn’t that incredible?
So God, thank you for today, thank you for reminding me you are still here, even when I feel hopeless, sad, and useless. That you are God, and I am not. That you love me, even when I am just resting in my bed. That sometimes running about doing a million things is really not as productive as it may seem. That being sedentary can be just as valuable. That resting in your presence is all I need to do, to be enough. That I am enough. Just as I am.
🎶 God’s Not Done With You, @Tauren Wells
Photo: My baby Josiebear in her sleepsuit 😴😴😴
I can’t even begin to explain the amount of support and love that flooded my feed & inbox yesterday. Thank you doesn’t even cover it. ✨ I’ve shown up here pretty much everyday for the last 4 years and shared everything. All of it. The good, bad & now, the ugly. What I love about sharing on here is that I meet SO many women from all over the world that find comfort in knowing they’re not alone. And guess what? I do to. Connecting with other women over struggles and not just strengths is so powerful. It’s one of the main reasons why I share. Because I know no matter how hard it is to admit, if I’m struggling with it, another woman out there is too, and you never know the magnitude your bravery and story could have on someone’s life. 💖
My little family and I got out last night to watch our oldest perform at school and oh my gosh my heart was overflowing. Thank you guys for your support for me, all the time, but especially this week. 💕 I hope it inspires you to go out and share your truth, no matter how scary. .
26027 minutes ago
My Mom took me to the park to hussle for more donations to reach her goal for #OneBraveNight
Goodnight lads and lasses hope we find ye all as well as can be expected. * Thought for Tonight* " For those who do not speak of things or do not really say, keep seeking and the life you want will come to you someday" #mentalhealth#Staystrong#speakup
Stáy safe in all that you do and have an easy night, God bless.
3056 minutes ago
f* yes!! @dilemmaofdesire has met their #kickstarter goal AND their stretch goal!
the dilemma of desire is a feature length documentary that explores the clash between the power of gender politics and the equally powerful imperatives of female sexual desire.
it was an incredible honor to work on the brand identity (logo collab with the insanely talented @akeezy_ubeezy), website, and social strategy for this project and to help with their KS campaign.
there is only 1 day to go and some amazing rewards including work from @sophiawallaceartist (the mastermind behind @yescliteracy), pictured here, whose faith in me is the reason i was brought on (thank you, as always!!) so please hop on over to the link in their bio to support!
I try to be a better ally every day.
We can all be better allies by:
1. Educating oneself about different experiences and identities
2. Challenge your own discomforts and prejudices
3. Practice these skills once they are learned
4. Take action to make CHANGE
Today, the reply I received to a dm I sent to a vegan activist regarding their latest sponsored (by a huge corporation) post, made me think: Why are we so quick to feel offended and can't tell the difference between constructive criticism and judgemental comments? I've always been a very honest person and the last few years I've worked a lot on how to express my honest opinions without sounding aggressive, ask questions and suggest things, rather than pointing the finger -will never be perfect, but I am trying. However, from time to time, there are people that misinterpret my intentions. I guess of course, I have done this as well, but usually I listen. I'm not the easiest to change my mind or view, but I believe I can tell the difference between having a disagreement and being personally attacked. Maybe we all need to dig deeper and before answering in an angry way, ask ourselves whether the motives of the person were to truly hurt us, or if there is some truth in their words and the reason they felt maybe hurtful, is they rang a bell in our consciousness. . #foodforthought#berries#feelattacked#consciousness#offended#constructivecriticism#judgementalpeople#instagraminfluencers#bloggers#motivation#inspiration#agreetodisagree#arguments#lifelessons#speakup#speakyourtruth#behelpful#bekind#choosecompassion#vegansofig
"This is America", "be more patriotic for those who passed", or "they need to be more like us, they came here"; these are all phrases angry Americans say. Anger, man can it be so hurtful, and selfish... What causes such feelings, could it be a fear of losing their view of self, or could it be a feeling of pride due to an over inflated ego? Who really teaches around the globe that America is the best, greatest, and most amazing country that needs no adjustment? From what has been heard, America is kind of a bully. People look to it for standards in some regards, but what about the negative thing here, are they teaching that?
🌟 WE BECOME WHAT WE SHARE ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Writing, social media, our art, our services. By putting it all out there, it shapes who we are and how others see us in a bit of a self-fufilling kind of way. So never hold back, if it feels scary or vulnerable, all the more reason to put it out there. If we hide in the shadows, our true purpose and passions may never rise to the surface. What's a time you've shared recently? Did it feel vulnerable?⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
For me, the more I blog the more confidence I get in the marketing services I offer. It feels more legit somehow! At the moment I'm aiming to post once a week with another post up this weekend. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Happy Easter everyone! ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Today’s cards are pulled for the Thursday through Saturday energies of the throat chakra, 3rd eye and crown. The first card Feathers, is all about resting and restoring the soul. It’s time to be surrounded my light, gentle and loving energies. Allow yourself to hear the loving words of Mother/Father Spirit. Connect with the inner voice that is soft and loving. Listen to the song of the birds around you. What are they saying? Slow down. Slow down. Connect and slow down. Tune into the vision within your 3rd eye. What is your heart saying as you tune in? In order to hear the messages you must turn into solitude and remember who you truly are. It’s all about authenticity and embracing your true self. It’s your Divine Right to love and honor who you truly are. Give yourself the Freedom and space to think and be all that you are. Free yourself from restrictions in whatever form it may be, thoughts, people, addictions, etc, and take flight. It’s time to soar! Have a beautiful weekend everyone! #mysticenergyreadings#mysticenergy#freedom#solitude#speakup#throatchakra#thirdeyechakra#crownchakra#shaman#medicinewoman#healer#intuitive#oraclecardreading#cardreadings#tarot#tarotreader#angelicmessages
901 hour ago
FEAR TO SPEAK
Voices in my head
like a ferris wheel, spinning,
but the music slowly heal
at the carnival i jingle at ease
because the rhythm i do feel
now imagine what you could see
if transparency was real
because this reality
is something we all fear
im tryna reach my peak
new heights is where i steer
winds hits, i feel the breeze
damn now i got chills
fear cant get to me
i voice over so yall hear
i aint afraid to speak
i just think timing is more real ~ Lègado
. #fear#speakup#love#poem#enjoy#feartospeak#legado#elpaso#eptx#livefree#selectivemutism 📸: @marianawhuut
1231 hour ago
Probably wondering how do I do that? I've got all of these things going on. I've had bad thing after bad thing. Made mistake after mistake. We all make mistakes. Question is how long are you going to punish yourself for these mistakes? I've been through absolute hell and there were days I didn't know if I was going to come through it. I was very lucky I had amazing friends and family. I isolated myself and it actually probably made me stronger for doing it. I used it to reflect and build. You have to take care of you in order to a good Momma, Daddy...or whatever it is you need to be.
Everyone punishes themselves in one way or another. Pain, misery, self loathing, self medicating with food, drugs or alcohol...It's not easy to do. It's not easy to turn the microscope on ourselves but necessary. Examine every single aspect of your life, tear it down piece by piece. Determine is any of this really worth the pay off? Your self punishment? Then decide what can I do to change it? RIGHT NOW! Write it down. Set goals. Hold yourself accountable.
Discover your inner badass. Every single one of us has one. You might have to look deeper to find it. But it's in there hidden under all the bullshit you've told yourself you're not or been convinced you can't be. Love you guys