Gone are the sunny days..
Yet all is that it plays
From the beginning to the end
Umpteen things to mend
Please excuse my impatience
We belong to different nation
Restrictions you kept saying
I realised someone betraying
There was no single bone of contention earlier
Abruptly there is now barrier
Yet I cherish all our memories
Wont let it become debris
How time flies
Hence Unblock me my friend
That was not how I fend
I know I had told you so
Those were my deepest low
But you know how stupid I can be
I wanted free
From all the strain
From the unknown pain
I envisioned many hallucination
Thought running away was the only solution
No I was utterly wrong
Please take my request song
Unblock me my friend
Extend your loyal hand
I know you wont now
Still I am trying and how
I want you to know that
I miss you loads & I am glad
Inspite all the ties that we have severed
Our friendship shall always be revered.
I re-evaluate my year just few weeks before my birthday and sometimes l feel very sad because some of the things l want are still out of place and it makes me feel like a mistake, like the past one year has been a failure. .
I throw myself on the floor and weep hard at how much l hoped, how much l prayed, how much l trusted and how much disappointment and pain has met my answers. As expected, self-pity comes in and says: oh you poor darling, why is this happening to you? You have such a good heart, so why? and the tears just flow
This year, l wish l could tell you things changed but they still look the same and as much as I want to throw myself and break into pieces, l decided to write about me from a third person perspective. It's amazing what l have achieved and how múch l have grown significantly in other areas. .
Of course I have been blindsided because my focus was on one thing and I have failed to realize that every other part of me has sprouted preparing for a full bloom. So, l asked myself after reading all l wrote, do you still think you are a mistake? .
The answer is NO. I want you to know you are not a mistake regardless of how blurry and uncertain life might look right now. Look back my darling, you have come a long way, it's been a long road and your legs are still walking. .
Do you still think you are a mistake seeing how far you've come?
Thank you for helping me learn to hov to vrite Russian.... LoL... Figure out the rest America. 🌊🌊😂🙃 — ( I fix the typo )
Somewhere between MADNESS and LOVE. FORVER WALKING THE LINE after abandoning my PROUD horse. 😂 (Mankind is y’all family) For Free based on True, Fair and Kind Knowledge through Earning it like OVERCOMING YOURSELF?? 😂🙃😭🗣👁
( "Tell me and I forget, teach me and I may remember, involve me and I learn.” - Ben Franklin 😭😂🙃👁 ) "That which does not kill you, make you stronger, only if and after you overcome it through True, Fair and Kind Knowledge, Friendship and Love??" - Nietzsche & Dalit Nigga Scum 🙃😂😊 —